Wednesday – 17/12/2014 – December...
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I just reached college. There is
no internet yet. The lab is closed. So I thought to make a blog posting. I was
not writing regularly because of the lack of substance in my life. It’s utterly
boring. Exams are over and I still come to college to get some high bandwidth. I
am downloading a game though I don’t know whether I would be able to play it or
not. Because I don’t get any chance to play a game. I only watch movies
skipping most of the rubbish scenes.
From some days I was matching my
horoscope with others and found not much of ideal match. Some people have match
in “guna” but they are not “manglik” and others are vice versa. Now many people
would argue why I believe in these shits where I myself saw that these don’t work
in real life that much. The thing is that I saw my part of horoscope working
perfectly for me and that’s why I chose to follow my astrologer’s advice. I saw
these things happening. How I disbelieve them?
The fact that I am a lonely guys
with almost a fast brain, it works day and night. And believe me it does work
in night when I sleep and that’s why I mostly see nightmares. Exams are over
and I can’t still sleep till 10’ o clock. I wake up at 5am. Today I woke up at
4am. What’s this going on with me? Why I can’t stay in peace? Am I so restless
for just a partner? Maybe. Because I am all alone. I have no one and I value no
earthly things as dear as the touch of love. Then why I can just accept any one
of them who proposed me? The answer is feelings. I don’t have for them. I can’t
create for them. I don’t want to create because I have suffered the result of
created love.
That girl, my first love, has
ditched another boy and this time it’s uglier. Many people may say that I must
be very happy for this as I forbade that boy previously not to fall in love
with her and he pretended like I am a dumb person, that’s not. I am sympathetic
toward all. I know what he is feeling now. Lots of anger dipped in sorrow. I have
felt that thing many times. And it’s not a very merry feeling. Then how I can
be happy? I am not. I am just waiting for the karma to react. I want that girl
and her family suffer not just because of me but because of their karma. Karma will
teach them a hard lesson I am sure of it.
I don’t know what my stars are
playing but it seems no one likes me because of that. It’s clearly written in
my “kundali” that I will not get any love and if I fell for any I will cry. That’s
the biggest prove that my kundali works. And another cruel thing is that
because of my “raashi” I will crave for love all the time. I have no regards for
any other earthly possessions. Because I know that nothing is forever. No even
diamonds are not. And I am not a girl that I will drool over them. The life is
bigger than these. For me it’s not iPhone, not MacBook, not any other gadgets. For
me its pure love. Pure uncompromised, unabridged, unconditional love and
nothing but it.
While writing this teacher came,
he opened the lab, perhaps started the net, but it’s not working as of now. And
I don’t know why. The Wi-Fi does showing in my list but it’s not accepting any connection.
Both my tablet and laptop is offline. Maybe these is some serious fault and think
it’s my fate. That’s wit, when I find no one to blame, we blame our fate. Well I
think it’s better to blame our fate than to blame someone else and take drastic
actions against it.
We should think before we leap,
so that later we don’t have to weep.
