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A Small Hard Truth...

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Well, I am writing from my tablet using blogger official app so prepare to get some grammer, spelling, typing, indentation and other such errors in this post. I will try to minimize but you all know how the mobile writing is. Though it has 7" of real estate space but still it feels crampy. Are you here to see the little hard truth? Well forat of all i have to tell you all that it will be small to you not me and its not hard to you either but to me. Then why i am sharing? No cause here. I write in my blog whenever i feel like. Its not because of anyone but maybe because of some causes. Good bad alike.

Maybe this post is my last post from my tablet as i am about to sell it. Thinking about buying a second hand iPhone 5s. Yes dear Americans, most of Indians can only buy second hand Apple stuffs. Its not like your movies where you all use apple all the time. I want to end the whole digital version of me. I am going to do it soon. I am just waiting for the right time. I was in the net before my digital avatar and i am again feeling the need to go incognito. And i am prepared for this.

Why? Because i have seen the world enough. Its not auitable for me but for the other me. I am good at myself. Others are just morons. There will be no harm to anyone nor anyone is going to shed ter
Ars fpr me and even if someone does cry me a river i dont care about it. No one is for anyone. Everyone is on their own. No one kills, no one dies. Its all just a part of a big choreographed drama. We are just the the players with expiration dates. Waiting for the curtain call.

I admire women. I respect them because they are far superior beings. Superior in every way of breaking hearts and bending rules. Superior in manipulation. They can make you do anything for them. They can make you dance in their tunes wheather you like it or not and wr have to dance because we dont have any other way. And after you complete your part they are so hearlessly remoursless that they can shed you out like a yellow leaf. I have been manipulated many times and in the end i was the one who always gets all the blame where the main culprits gets away with clean collers. So you see there is no way to not to respect them. Sooner of later you have to follow their commands conciously or the other way around. They will get whatever they want. And you call me misogynist. Unless someone have any first hand experience how can they understand it? They cant be anyone's friends, like feline species they are selfish. I find it disgusting to not have people who want equality. Everyone is chauvinist. And thats ridiculous.

Recovering From Writers Block...

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After long silence of 3 Months, 21 Days, 2 Hour and 3 Minutes, I am again here to write a few lines. Where was I? I was here, in this plane, observing things silently. Why didn't I wrote anything? Because I didn't felt the urge to. I mean what’s the point? There is no audience. I just write my mind off here, not to please someone. I write about myself and my life and no one gives a damn about it. Anyways, what did I do in these days?

Well, I prepared for the company where I got a job. Saw tons of movies, downloaded tons of contents, listened to a few songs, no books these days except study ones, no games for me either, though I downloaded some, also I am doing my final year project, joined a group in college. This group made me very busy. I like it. I like being busy. I like forgetting all the pain I have in my life. No offence, but I won’t be comparing my pain with some other’s. I respect mine more.

Every day I tried to write a page here. But I couldn't find any words to write. Call it my writer’s block. So I kept myself quite. It was on my to-do list. It was on my notes. I looked at it all the time still find no way to do so. My life is upside down. I am too busy to look into it. Lost my last remaining best friend. Well our relation was ended long ago. I just signed the contract few days back and she seemed happy.

There is another person who wants to be in my life but I have absolutely no feeling towards her. Can't betray or disrespect someone’s feeling. It’s better for her if she don’t come inside my life. It’s better for her because as she has said, her life is also messed up. I have respect for her. And also our stars don't match. I have somewhat little believe left in this astrology. Can't risk her life because I am a risky job myself. On the other hand the girls who is very compatible with me refused me few days back and now in love with someone else. This is how screwed up I am. Love is not potty which can be forced. So I won’t be forcing myself to love someone, I did it in my past and it didn't turned well for me.

Slowly I am getting addicted to TV series, now a days I look for better series. I am already up to date with Arrow and The Flash. CSI:Cyber seemed boring to me. Now watching Constantine. Waiting for Game of Thrones Season 5. Also after Constantine I will start Vikings. Deleted some of the series from my HDD because there is few space.

Windows 10 is coming and I am hoping to get a copy for free as they are giving it away. I am also looking for a smartphone to buy because my employer won't be allowing any laptop or tablet inside campus so I am going to live a pretty boring life in coming future for 90 days at a stretch. Also for this my plan of buying a 2TB external HDD is cancelled.

My tablet OS has been upgraded to KitKat and no improvement yet. Well its working fine for me. I don't want to sell it but still I think I have to do it soon. That makes me sad in all the ways. I am awaiting my final joining letter and I don’t know when I will be getting one. Till the day I stopped updating my windows 8.1 and reverted back to windows 8 I am going absolutely fine with no space issues. So the moral of the story is always advancing forward is not a solution to a problem. Sometimes u need to step back.

As our department’s project room is not fully ready yet, we don’t have UPS there with PC, that’s why I have to bring my home UPS to the scene and now I can’t switch on my home desktop and play any games. Summer is going to be boring. That I can say and well as I can still bring the UPS anytime, I don’t want to jeopardise my project and the final semester marks of my teammates.


I know probably you guys are cursing me by this time now but hey my blog, my choice :P