cultural vultures are going to organise cultural festival.......what a joke !
9:55 PM Posted In Diary Edit This 0 Comments »hmm,
feeling a little bit sad.upset.loofy.dont know why.well there are many cause but don't know which one is the exact cause of my this chemical imbalancement in my brain. may be its because my Ex is spreading rumours about me that i had done a full sexual intercourse with her. or maybe she is dating someone [actually many] else who is more qualified tan me. she said that her bf [present one but don't know which one..] resides in Bangalore and studies engineering there. and maybe just maybe this is hurting my male ego. dont know the cause but surely its something thats ticking inside me from the day starts. my life is getting messy day by day. may be i become very ignorant towards myself. I cant concentrate on my studies. I cant get enough time to call/text /mail/socialize. even i cant give miscalls to my friends and my loved one also.
don't know its maybe the fate which is playing with me.constantly.in every footsteps. I feel that someone or something is pulling the strings from behind me and i got stuck in the between of everything. and keep sucked until or unless i have got something another to be sucked with. nothing helped me yet. nor i get acquainted with much friends. every friend I have met they either try to get something from me or they try to capture me and make me their sidekick. I refused to be anyone's slave or master. I know i have all the capabilities to be a leader. people follows me. people admits my ideas. but i simply don't want to hear from anyone that i have told them to follow me.no.never. i don't want to take any one's responsibility. atleast not of them whom i have only a slight relationship.
i m in very much unhappy mood. college is going to organise their annual festival and for that we students [mostly of the first year] have to pay 220+200 = 420 rupees. That's full 420 business. and thats a hefty sum of money too that my family have to pay for me to get only a t-shirt and a day's meal. this is ridicules am very much against of this. what i heard of that many teachers who made themselves so called CULTURURAL SECRETARY are ordering the seniors to get the money. and the money is collecting like a ransom which mafias used to get in their area. we can all understand that someone of the high rank of the college is involved on all this money transaction. and not the all money is going to spend in the manner it is supposed to be spent. and nobody is telling anything about it. Various Teachers, HOD himself is not telling anything practical in reply of my simple question that the money we are paying is mandatory or not. they keep telling me that I am not in charge ask someone else. and who is the someone they are not telling that specifically. and in the result we cannot pin point that man easily. who is supposed to give me the answer of this.
I am not happy about this whole fest thing. not only it is a big expenditure for us, the poor students. but it also hampers the education environment for the five or six days in the college.
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