My Digitized Thoughts - Ramen Mukherjee ...

Hii guys,

Today i m about to tell u about my Chennai journey. I started my journey right at 4:30 am sharp. From my house. With my parent mom & dad carrying 5 luggages.2 suitcases, 1 big bag, my laptop bag and 1 water case. My father’s elder sister, her husband and son has also joined us at station. Well basically our journey started with an auto-rickshaw and ended with an auto-rickshaw as well.the boy is very much restress.always doing bad things.and disturbing people.its not that i m and i was a very quite calm good kid.the boy is very much restress.always doing bad things.and disturbing people.its not that i m and i was a very quite calm good kid and i HATE problem childs.but this kid has absolutely no discipline from his parent’s side.his parents don’t do any disciplinary punishments to him.thats why he always keep beating others.destroying things.always disturbing others.demanding things.damaging goods.not only his acts are destructive but hius thinking is also.he said himself that he likes to beat others.he is beating his parets too.very PROBLEM child.should be put into a strict boarding school.the boy is in now class lower KG bt still his parents feend him milk in the baby feeding bottle.the boy sucks his fingers.and the boy is nt a baby.its a full grown child.so much irritating to see.when child grew up it is the duty of the parents to stop his from keep doing such things.Ya i m telling much about this kid in the start because i absolutely HATE this kind of kid.it gets me crazy when i see him.such a little boy with a very big attitude. Absolutely ill-mannered.anyways staying with this kid with absolutely mouth shut position is a very difficult task for me.

Anyway the journey started in the AC chair car of black diamond express, then continued, and ended in AC 2tier COROMONDOL express.i keept my twitter alive through the whole journey.i don’t know how many of my blog’s visitors followd my tweets bt i keps them all informed at my blog and at my orkut a/c that i m gonna update my status at twitter.i havnt got any reply in any of my social network a/cs so therefor i think that NO one has followed me on twityter.however i will keep updating my tweets.blogging my passion.so whoever wants the full details HAVE TO view my twitter page for details.this is my main blog.NOT my status updates and therefor i CANT always blog.i cant blog from my mobile and i cant carry my lappy EVERYWHERE.

Anyway when we reached Chennai we have to wait for about 2 hours to get an AC rooms.we planned to stay in two separate rooms. As my father is a heart & eye & kidney patient. He needs to rest completely. As he is main cause of coming to Chennai.but it wast happened as we planned and both 6 peoples have to staty in a one room.and bliv me its a hell.the boy starts his disgusting deeds from morning and he will nt sleep in night at times.my family is having too much trouble for that little scroundel.my mom is too a patient.me too.actually we also came for a check-up.and the most strange thing is that, that boy’s parents wont tell it any word until or unless it started to disturb them.that boy should be beaten enough to break all his bad will.

The treatment started and the first day Dr.Arun kumar,who is said to be the best urologist in the Apollo center,without examining my father and doing any diagnostics directly told my father to go through a lithotripsy, a procedure where shockwave have been forced upon the kidney to dust the calcially stone inside the kidney.after going through the procedure, which is said to be a 45mins+1hour 15mins total 2 hour affair, my father keep feeling very much pain and keep vomiting.i could not understand that whats in the matter of taking anything.my father is on fasting since morning that day.and they didn’t gave him a glass of water.one doctor is saying that my father can go and have a normal life now.bt since he is having that problem they have to admit in the EMERGENCY bt there too his pain havnt gone so he is then admitted to general ward.and i stayed there as an attendant there whole night.whole night my father feeling pain and he keeps moving in the bed,my words cant describe the moment.bt i got a very new kind of experience. I gained much knowledge about handling patients in hospital.u know what,in the night i saw that the blood in coming out in the saline tube.i got so much panicked.in the biology books i hav read that the blood only comes in the tube when the patient collapsed.i thought in a second that my father has died.i rushed to the nurse and told her and she told me that its very normal if he keeps moving his hands.i felt so much relieved then.i have to keep records of volume ,time ,behaviour of all water intake and urine passouts.this is a very critical job.the doctor said to me that the fragments of the kidney stone may come out with the urine.so i kept looking for the stones by searching in the urine. But i found none.anyway i have through a very tough situation.at morning when my father is sleeping i tried to sleep but the nurses kept me awake by interrupting me from time to time for bringing medicines or going to the biling division.anyway the doctor came and told me that the patient can be discharged today.after discharging we bring the patient to the hotel bt again that problem child is making our life hell.

Then my father keep having pain all day.and today when we go to the doctor for checkup he says that the stone hasn’t broke yet.and he havnt seen any stone like this.nw the question is hw can a doctor does any operation without getting clear idea about the treatment and the patient he is dealing with.is this called a quality healthcare?NO.absolutely NOT.we are not richi rich people.we dnt have bank full of notes.nowor is saying that he might go for a PCNL operation which is a big and critical operation.we maybe a layman in this medical field but we told the doctor in the first visit to do a PCNL operation.we prepared ourselves for that.but the doctor is a total useless.SHIT him.

So i m now having my dinner.writing this blog.saikat da called me just now.and i forgot to tell him that i m updating my tweets for the updates.i will call him and tell him.

Anyways, sayonara.pray for my father.

Good night u all.

Guys hiii,

I don’t know why i keep seeing these kinds of wierd and live movie like dreams.and the best of it i remember my dreams and still can recall it like a movie i saw.some days back i also saw a dream like that.very big in length.i was exited and in the next day i told moni and biswa abt this...this dfream is about a strange world. Where a tyrant king rules the upper portion the earth while some others who escaped resides in the underground. The underground is full of darkness filth and smells.no one from the upper world comes to the underground. They actually hates the underground peoples.the underground peoples are hated by the upper ones.though they are sharing the same blood lines.now for leaving in the underground and nt getting any of the sunlight the residents of underground has become like beasts and their skil melts and they look like people with lyprosy.their body parts become defective.bt these troll like people are very good at heart.and i m a person of them bt surisingly i m nt having ant deformity like they have i m like a normal boy.they call me wonder boy.and i m their gateway to the upperside.i go to upperside steal things and food and bring that to them.though we live in the undergrounds filled with filth we have a very good number of farmers and scientists who r able to make such corps which grow in dark.we r very peace loving people.we have a door centry who guard the main entrance to the underworld.there is only one guard because for ages after the division no one has ever came even the near to the gate.so there is not a contact.a guard lives there.dont know his name. He is a very ordinary person.he is having one small eye and a big eye.due to one of the deformities of underground.short in size.having a homegrown fan dress of the commander.becaz bt he is the biggest fan of the commander in chief of the upperworld. the commander is a very brave man.a very strong soldier and said to be a very justified man. Our guard always practises commander’s move.he reads every journal or anything he get about that commander.bt very calm in nature this guard is mocked and called commander by every underground resident because his fancy in the combat moves of commander.

Then one day....the princess of the upperworld was abducted from her room and thrown into the unknown dark hole of long lost underground sewer because of a enmity to the king. She fall down to the underground. Our guard gets her.and she is brought to the main canter of the underworld.all the people is looking at her in amazement.she is filled in mud and all black mud like things.she is then washed by water and then we all saw that she is beautiful like hell.we don’t know that she is the princess yet.bt we knew that she is surely one of a royal blood.her beauty is amazing.she is having a blond hair.well she lost her temporal memory due to the incident.she started to live with us and as i m only look like her actually look like a upperworld citizen.she became my good fnrd.and she started to learn the culture of the underworlds.she started to love the underworld.i showed her our glowing fields which is the main source of our food.she slowly fell in love with me.

Nw the tyrant king has informed that we undergrounds are the one who abducted the princess.the king became furious and announced a war against us.then a furious war happens.we the underground peoples are mostly farmers, we never fought any war.so we don’t know to fight.bt on the otherside the war has begun and they are coming to destroy us.the king himself is coming to get his daughter.and that commander is also coming who is said that never lost any war.and is very loyal to the king.i became instantly a leader as they bliv that i m a wonder boy.bt even i don’t have any field experience in war.then suddenly a voice raised which said “i will lead the army”.the voice is none others than our oun version of commander.he lead the army and our scientists made the weapons.a fearsome war held between us and we won the war and then i became the king.married the princess.and both underworld and the world became friends again.and there will be no such division between us.

And yes.we livd happily ever after..thank god that the princes’s face is nt the same of my EX..ha ha ha.

Its a old dream of mine.i shared because i thought that its good to share.

J

Bye bye frnds...

The dream that i had today..... part 2

Hii all,

After the first dream i woke up.and then again fall asleep.and started to seeing another dream.this dream is bit more realistic.i m in my normal state walking down the streets of dolly lodge.when i suddenly saw a girl.very beautiful ,fair ,having a good length of hair.wearing a black jeans and a slight brown redish type pullover. Very sexy in looks.walking and at the end of the road when i came closer to her i saw my class note copy of nandan sir’s physics class in her hand.then she went to the petrol pump.[i don’t know why] and then i told her the if she ever have any problem of understanding the writing she can tell me.i live nearby.when she turn around i am very astonished to see her face.its my EX’s face with slight changes.she said that she is in class 10 [and i m sill in my 1^st year] of mahila kalyan.and she got my copy from a paperwala.she started to chat with me and i was very happy then.and after she got up in a bus towards Asansol.i got up in my old cycle[ranger swing bt surprisingly its in red in colour..when i had that cycyle in purple colour] and cycled to my home in uttarayan....

I don’t know why i saw this dream.whats the connection of it.when in chenai i m NOT thinking abt my EX for any instatnce.i m commited to som1 else now.bt why i cant forget my past.that girl.why???is she is residing in my subconscious brain?for ever?why?why i cant delete her from my memory?

Still looking for the answers....

L

bye

The dream i had today ...

Hii frnds,

Today i had a very strange dream. Actually i had two dreams. At first half i had a peculiar dream.

The dream starts with a scene of my old school Asansol Ramakrishna mission high school. i was in a room of it. Studying about ancient artefacts and mystery when suddenly the door bangs. All the student runs out. That old teacher is too. a group of tall dark men enters the room,all covered with black goun. All black ,black turban with a batch in it of an ancient symbol etched in gold.their face is covered like any ninja.only the eyes are out.and those eyes are having surma.and their physics are like tiger.and their leader is looking better than all.they are having best physiqe.bt he is magnificent.as i was nt flew from the room.the leadr came to me.and he is seeing me in very curious way.and after sometime he is astonished.he asked me abut my name.i told him.what i told i dnt remember.then he suddenly opens up his mask and i m shocked to see that its my face.he having.and then suddenly i recalled memories.actually i m a time theif.i steal things and artifacts from many times.and collet them.i m an Italian theief.who first stole a time machine.and after some experiements he is finally able to control it bt during a mishapthe time control started to flows in hius veins.and he started to manipulate time of his own.and he can also transmit.the only cliue he leave after stealing things is tyre burns of a red Ferrari.nw detectives knew its red becaz many has seen the Ferrari.although he doesn’t need a Ferrari for travelling as he can jump through time hole.bt as he is fond of cars specially Ferrari he does that.the only things he had bought in his life is that Ferrari and its full of gadgets and can do anything.actually he has another power to steal knowledge.and he steals many scientist’s knowledge.steal means copying.nt deleting in their minds.nw

On one day he thinks of going into the most dangerous mission he has even gone.to finding the wolfkey.its an ancient artefact.which states that no man of its time can ever possed it because its guardian wolf will kill him.bt if anyone can posses that then he will be given the most powerful power known to man.bt as the world evolves the key is lost in time.and nw he in on a mission to recover it.bt as he started to jumps into the time. Another mishaps happens and he landed in a dark time of magic without all his powers.for many years he have been looking for the key and gaining knowledge about it.because he is now only have his knowledge as his power.so at last he came to this institute which is said to be the last person’s alter who has seen the wolf beast and the key.

And nw here is he.seeing his face in another man like a mirror.nw when the another man touches him.he suddenly started to see visuals.and he realised that his stealing skills are nt his gifts bt skills which he had.he is actually incarnated to find the wolf key.as in this time his alter image is also finding the key.that means its in him to find the keylits his destiny...

Then that man seeks for the roof of that room which is highly decorated like a Vatican church.there he throws a light reflected witha silver mirror.and a place in that roof starts glowing.and a seal of teeths started to appear.then one of his man climbed up to the roof and put his hands into the hole.and he got out the key.bt then suddenly winds started to flowing and wolfs starting to howling.

In the next scene.i saw that i m running in a field..crossing mountains after mountains and a huge wofl is running after me.at the last end of the mountain i saw something shining.i ran to that side and i saw a silver sword.i took that and when i m in the cliff and there is nowhere to go the wofl jumped to me.and i inserted the whole sword in his chest.i got the key and all my teleportation powers and i jumped back to the time..

The dream ended..

2^nd half of another dream in the next part of the blog...

J

bye

original post at - http://conversationamongtheruins.wordpress.com/“the-alchemist”-–-paulo-coelho/

It’s the possibility of having a dream come true that makes life so interesting.

• Everyone seems to have a clear idea of how other people should lead their lives, but none about his or her own.
• The world’s greatest lie is that: “At a certain point in our lives, we lose control oh what’s happening to us, and our lives become controlled by fate.”
• When you are young, everything is clear and possible. You are not afraid to dream, and to yearn for everything you want to happen to you in your lives. But, as time passes by, a mysterious force begins to convince you that it will be impossible for you to realize your Personal Legend. (It’s what you have always wanted to accomplish.)
• The Soul of the World is nourished by people’s happiness.  And also by unhappiness, envy and jealousy. To realize one’s Personal Legend is a person’s only real obligation.
• When you want something, the whole universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.
• If you start out by promising what you don’t even have yet, you’ll lose your desire to work towards getting it.
• EVERYTHING IN LIFE HAS ITS PRICE.
• You can have the freedom of the wind. There is nothing to hold you back except yourself.
• Principle of Favorability: When you play cards the first time, you are almost sure to win-“Beginner’s Luck”.  Reason: There is a force that wants you to realize your personal legend; it whets your appetite with a taste of success.
• In order to find your treasure, you will have to follow the omens. God has prepared a path for everyone to follow. You just have to read the omens that he left for you.
• IF YOU CAN, TRY TO MAKE YOUR OWN DECISIONS.
• Making a decision is only the beginning of things. When someone makes a decision, he is really diving into a strong current that will carry him to place he had never dreamt of when he first made the decision.
• The secret of happiness is to see all the marvels of the world, and never to forget the drops of oil on the spoon. (your main aim)
• You see the world in terms of what you would like to see happen, not what actually does.
• I’m afraid that if my dream is realized, I’ll have no reason to go on living.
• The desert is a capricious lady, and sometimes she drives men crazy.
• The closer one gets to realizing his personal legend, the more that personal legend becomes his true reason for being.
• Intuition is really a sudden immersion of the soul into the universal current of life, where the histories of all people are connected, and we are able to know everything, because its all written there-Maktub
• People need not fear the unknown if they are capable of achieving what they need and want. The fear of losing what we have evaporates when we understand that our life stories and world history were written by the same hand.
• He was experiencing the language without words- the universal language.
• We make a lot of detours, but we’re always heading for the same destination.
• Soul of the world: When you want something with all your heart, that’s when you are closest to the Soul of the World. It’s always a positive force.
• Everything on this earth has a soul. Not only humans, but also minerals, vegetable, animal – even a simple thought.
• The alchemist’s Master Work was part liquid and part solid: The liquid part, called the Elixir of life, could cure all illness and the solid part, called the Philosopher’s Stone could turn large quantities of metal into gold.
• Only those who are persistent and willing to study things deeply, achieve the Master Work. 
• The world has a soul and whoever understands that soul can also understand the language of things.
• Everyone has his or her own way of learning things. But all are in search of their personal legends and we should respect each other for this.
• If you can concentrate always on the present, you’ll be a happy man. Life will be a party for you, a grand festival, because life is the moment we’re living right now.
• Live the present moment-the party like you did the lessons of the past and the dreams of the future.
• In the pursuit of your dream, you shall be constantly subjected to tests of your persistence and courage. So don’t be hasty or impatient. If you push forward impulsively, you would fail to see the signs and omens left by God along your path.
• When you know the universal language, it’s easy to understand that someone in the world awaits you. And when two such people encounter each other, and their eyes meet, the past and the future become unimportant. There is only that moment, and the incredible certainty that everything under the sun has been written by one hand only. It is the hand that evokes love, and creates a twin soul for every person in the world. Without such love, one’s dreams would have no meaning ~ Maktub
• The secret of the future lies in the present. If you pay attention to the present, you can improve upon it. And, if you improve on the present, what comes later will also be better. Forget about the future, and live each day according to the teachings, confident that God loves his children. Each day, in itself, brings with it an eternity.
• No Alchemist knows the future. Only when “He”, himself reveals it, do we know the future. And God only rarely reveals the future. When he does so, it is for only one reason: it’s a future that was written so as to be altered.
• Whoever believes in dreams knows how to interpret them.
• Courage is the quality most essential to understand the Language of the World.
• Is Wine prohibited? It’s not what enters men’s mouth that’s evil, it’s what comes out of their mouths that is.
• Wherever your heart is, there you will find your treasure.
• Love never keeps a man from pursuing his Personal Legend. If he abandons that pursuit, it’s because it wasn’t true love……the love that speaks the Language of the World.
• I love you because the entire universe conspired to help me find you.
• Don’t think about what you’ve left behind. If what one finds is made of pure matter, it will never spoil. And one can always come back. If what you had found was only a moment of light, like the explosion of a star, you would find nothing on your return.
• LISTEN TO YOUR HEART, It knows all things, because it came from the Soul of the World, and it will one day return there.
• You will never be able to escape from your heart. So it’s better to listen to what it has to say. That way, you’ll never have to fear an unanticipated blow.
• People are afraid to pursue their most important dreams, because they feel that they don’t deserve them, or that they’ll be unable to achieve them.
• No heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams, because every second of the search is a second’s encounter with God and with eternity.
• Everyone on this earth has a treasure that awaits him. People’s hearts seldom say much about those treasures, because people no longer want to go in search of them. We simply let life proceed, in its own direction, towards its own fate. But, unfortunately, very few follow the path laid out for them – the path to their Personal Legends, and to their happiness.
• Most people see the world as a threatening place, and, because they do, the world turns out, indeed, to be a threatening place.
• Before a dream is realized, the Soul of the World tests everything that was learned along the way. It does this not because it is evil, so that we can, in addition to realizing our dreams, master the lessons we have learnt as we’ve moved towards that dream. That’s the point at which most people give up. It’s the point at which, we are just about to see the horizon.
• Every search begins with a beginner’s luck and ends with the victor being severely tested.
• DARKEST HOUR OF THE NIGHT COMES JUST BEFORE DAWN.
• When you possess great treasures within you, and try to tell others of them, seldom are you believed.
• Your eyes show the strength of your soul.
• Anyone who interferes with the Personal Legend of another thing never will discover his own.
• Don’t give in to your fears. If you do so, you won’t be able to talk to your heart.
• There is only one thing that makes a dream impossible to achieve: the fear of failure.
• When you are loved, you can do anything in creation. When you are loved, there’s no need at all to understand what’s happening, because everything happens within you.
• Love is the force that transforms and improves the Soul of the World.
• It is we who nourish the Soul of the World, and the world we live in will be either better or worse, depending on whether we become better or worse. And that’s where the power of love comes in. Because when we love, we always strive to become better than we are.
• When we strive to become better than we are, everything around us becomes better too.
• Everything that happens once can never happen again. But everything that happens twice will surely happen a third time.

“My heart is afraid that it will have to suffer”, said the boy.

“Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse that the suffering itself. And no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams”, replied the Alchemist.

hii all,

its me again ,sitting in my desk with my lappy,wearing pyjama and t-shirt.feeling exhausted after last night’s excessive chatting till 4 am.with my gf and a brother.

its all started after 13th of march.miscall on our landline started to disturb us.mostly after 1 am.its ridicules.and its started showing up more prominently after 15th.

at 13th i accepted my gf’s propose.and from 15th it started.me 7 my gf and that brother of mine thinks that its a evil work of my ex.as she has become envy of my love.

from many days my frnds and my gf telling me that they r sensing that my EX is having a THING for me.she tries to impress me.i told u guys in my previous blog postings.yesterday night there is too some miscalls.my gf is worrying for me.its natural on her side.and i appreciate that.bt my ex have to pay the price if she is really behind this whole drama.

i told my father about this and told him to install a CLI in landline also.he agreed bt as we r going out of station of some days and we r busy making arrangements of this maybe we install that when we come back.

its a beginning of a fight my fnrds.i hav fought it earlier too when my ex was playing a love triangle game with on of my close fnrd.and for that my frnd become frenzy over me and he started to giving me threats.i endured him and learnt many things from that.now i m very strong.and i know how strong she is.she have frnds.she can make new frnds regularly caz she knows how to impress a male.males become crazy for her.she knows all the arts.

well its my time for tution is coming up.catch u giys later.

tata

hii friends,

finally my gd is finished and i become 3rd among 37 students of the class.avirup 1st.raaj 2nd and then there is me.personally i liked the speech delivery of sanchita.raj liked monideepa’s.sir liked arindom’s.in my opinion today sanchita susanta argha gave very good delivery.and there is the disastrous team the team number 3.they convert the whole gd session into laughter show.what a mess.

our HOD sir is thinking of selling his Lenovo laptop.his laptop is in almost ok condition.i got a cd of VB6.dont know whats in this.i dont know whay bt my lappy is running very slow.maybe something is striking its performance.i scanned for virus and found none.

emotions.very hard things to control.its often boundless.the switch off key is not included.and all of us cant supress it.when u got any emotions u show.humans differs ,bt their emotions still unchanged.so why in this era we r afraid of showing emotions?we IT guys always try to force our emotions to not to be shown up in the worktime.why?dnt we know that emotion gives power?if we can set a good work environment then we dnt hav to force ion that.becaz then we will be highhly attached with our work.this attachment,this bondhing comes from upper side.and thats why this implementation of work environment helps us very much.bt we rather like to run after some problematic structure to follow only the speaking ability of a person in corporate sector.

bye bye

hope u all to c tomorrow.

hii fellas,

wassup? today my day started with a bang of  idea just buzzed to my head.i woke up today with an idea of making a visual basic program.a program to make a Vote Machine software.if i succeed in this it will be a major move for me.wish me luck guyz..

today after the class we talked much about ourselves ,our past ,how we fell in love with each other.and how i realize that her love for me is true.and she kept her self in control.she is a very good girl.she understands me a lot.cares for me a lot.and i can write thousand times anywhere that how much she loves me and how much i love her.

i always dreamt of a true lover gf.bt never thought that i will get anyone someday.she even visited my blog but unfortunately she only saw a bit of my old writings.i hope someday she can manage to connect her lappy with her phone and do net from her lappy.

i don't know what will be the future of our relation but as they say if its running in this way.what's the problem?let it run in the same way.don't think of future.just live for the moment.i live for the moment.

i think lovelife is a little bit over matured frustrated monotonically decreasing life.it begins with a high passion and ends with a complete ego clash.ego.this 3 letter word destroys life in a jiffy.it brings frequest misunderstandings and those frequest visits to hell slowly makes the life a complete mess and slowly that misunderstandings become non-understandings.and for that relations breaks.

and also love is like a very delicate menu of a restaurant where we have to keep updating the WHATS NEW menu of the day.we have to add spice to it.it takes lots of effort bt it worth's the comfort u will get in ur life.i will rather do this kind of hard work than ended up in mess.and thats what i m teaching ____ today.that we have to keep refreshing our love life.and u guys please DO that too..

love u all.

bye bye
gd n8

hii,

i m just woke from my 6 hours sleep. From 3pm to 9 pm. and none, hav tried to wake me up. what a mess. i just lost my precious 6 hours. And what i m seeing after i woke up? my net is not working. oooh i m so much angry right now so i started writing this blog and i saving this blog in a word file and whenever my net becomes active i will upload it to blogspot. well How r u all? i wonder sometimes that what u all are doing right now. Well none of u ever shared that with me but i think it is my duty to ask for u on regular basis. Today i m feeling a bit relieved because i heard that there was our presentation session will going to be happen in 26^th of march but as i m going to Chennai at 25^th and i gave a letter to our department’s HOD and humanities department HOD also in this regard and they accepted the letter too. Moreover, for that, we buy our train reservation tickets and now it is very hard for us to cancel those tickets, as this operation is very must for my father. He is suffering from a staghorn stone in his kidney. But i asked today the HOD of humanities about that exam and he told me that it would be fine if I do my part of that presentation after coming back from Chennai.

Today me and mb gave jalal a party. He was a hell of a guy. Very helpful in nature. And whatever be his external appearance was i realized that he is such a darling boy. Very cute from inner self. he too has a same taste of dream girl as me. He too wants a simple girl as i found in mb. Well apart from this my life is now going somewhat smooth. i got a committed girlfriend. and its feeling like i m in top of the world.

I do not know. The god in that above world don’t seems to be pleased when i m happy and he does something that makes me cry everyday when i just started to smiling and thinking of being happy forever. i never got a chance to meet that person but if i would someday i surely will give him a big punch in his mouth. To make my life hell every time when its gonna be heaven.

Its is said that everyone’s luck is written by some god. Someone writes them. Well its my personal view that when there is a good god writing my luck after some lines of writing he goes to the toilet and in his place a bad god enters and edited and ended my luck with some bad lines. For that everything is my life starts with a big bang of happiness. It stays joyful for some time and from the middle, it started twisting, and it always ends with my tears.

From my very childhood i never got any chance of being a good friend of anyone except my best friend saumya.i never good good friends as my views ,mentality ,ideas dont match with them.i dont liked the topic of sports as i m nt interested in the matter of any kind of sports.i dont discuss the topic of hard high leveled study that time. Because i m a mediocre student. i don’t have such caliber to sit with them and discuss about any higher algebra or any physics topic. upto my class 7 its mathematics ,Bengali ,English and upto class 10 i was only interested in geography, Bengali ,history ,English. And in class 11 & 12 its biology, Bengali and English which catches my attention. i was never a true science student from the beginning though i completed my HS in science division. And there is another third kind of topic arises when i m in my class 8. It’s the topic of girls. And i was very shy about that topic and also i had a very low knowledge about that because i don’t had any girlfriend not any female friend till my class 11.when i got to a co education school leaving my boys school. So i cant discuss anything about it and these 3 conditions made me a loner from my very childhood. I was always a lonely guy. Now i m heart of my friends. They say that if i ever miss a class i have to let them know about it because they will too miss their class with me because the class seems very unsalted when i m not around.

Well now i have to call my gf as she gets tensed if do not call her back now. She gave me many miss calls.

Okk guys.

Bye bye

Gd n8

hii,

its me again.writing from my lappy.just came home after eating delicious moglai of the deep snacks of court bazaar.not so very famous moglai but in my sence he makes the most delicious moglai in the whole asansol.today i gave treat to saumya.because its my turn now to celebrate my committed life..well once again.ha ha ha.i gave treat yesterday to my friend biswajit and arghya.and its now jalal who is left to give a treat.

well my friends,sometimes life plays a very twisted game with people.what we have we dont want and what we want we dont get.and we don't feel importance of anything unless it is lost or taken away by fate.realization.its is the very root of the feelings.sometimes we had our feelings to someone but we cant realize it unless or until something happens and from that when we start to realize the absence of the presence of that thing we start to miss that thing badly and in the end that feeling of missing something makes us mad to that extent that we want to do anything to get that.

i dont know i am mad of what.but i now love ________.sorry guys cant disclose the name here now.because i dont want to make a public statement this time.but i tested her in many ways and all time she excelled in my exam of love.she loves me from the deepest core of her heart and this is the only thing which i want from my partner to give me.YAA I M MAD FOR HER NOW.

back to friday night when i was chatting with jalal,frustated about my situation,listening to jalal’s chat,and that chat changed my whole  point of view of mine for ________.jalal told me that i should hgive her a chance for hewr love is true for me.i dont know.i always fail to identify people.but as far i could have tested ________ her love for me is unconditional.i told her every thing of my past in details.i told her my each and evry love crush.and i even behave very frankly and viulgurly with her.but though she likes me for who i m nt what i am.well to speak of truth i m nothing.i m a complete looser.a day dramer.an idiot.i m not a good child.not a good student.not a good academic.evryone of u know how goodlooking i am.and according to my EX i m not a good lover too.amazing isnt it?

talking of that bitch.she is tyrying to impress me bad;ly but still i dont even look at her ass.and thats makes her more crazy and desparate to grab my attention.saikat is her poor victim at college.shes got some hell of a charm to impress boys.she can impress every male.but atleast she cant impress me now.

enough said..

bye bye

sayonara

hey folks,

today i became committed.after a very prolonged series of problematic confusions i finally get committed to girl who perhaps loves me most in this world besides all my faults..yesterday i talked about this with my dear friend Jalal.he helps me to make my decision.

she proposed me many times in these recent days.she even told her parents about me and that she loves me.she told me that she cant think anyone in my place.she is crying for me.bt i 1st told her to wait as i m lacking the feelings for her.but she insisted and said that she has no doubt that she loves me.then i said okk.lets give it a try.but i don't know why she loved me.i m a worthless boy.i have nothing.nothing in particularly mine.no money.no bike.no looks.no academic results.no job.no assurance.i even don't have a life insurance. :( .i m a big fat dark boy having a bad looking face.

my laptop is running fine and i m having a very good time with my laptop.

please wish me and my partner a happy future ahead..

khuda haafiz.

hello,

hw r u all today?feeling good?hmm.i dont know what i m feeling for.nothing seems alright to me.in these days.many things happened and happening.

my university 1st sem results came out.i scored only 7.86.i was very dishearten then.i thought that i wud get 8 atleast.bt as my results shows and as i thought i got very bad marks in maths and digital electronics.

i bought a new laptop and this is the biggest news.i proposed a girl ehose name i cant disclose here and my best frnd of collg also proposed me.and now i m in a very confusing jeopardy.what to do.a girl loves me and i dnt have a feeleng for her and i love a girl who is still confused with her past.i dont know whats happening to me bt as it is happening to me i hav to endure it.

i like both the girls.bt i lacked my feelings for the second girl.whats this all happening to me?why its all happening to me?
i have felt many things.i havnt slept fotr many nights for the problems i am having throughout these days.and these r unbearable.

will say more soon…feeling sleepy nw..

bye bye

hii guys,

its me again after a veryyyyy long time.i know i sud be punished.many many things have been happened in these days.i have to have 100 or more hours to wirte all about those days.many things have been changed.many things which i never dreamnt of happened..

hmmm

from where shall i start?…lets see.well as far as i can recall .. i tasted alcohol in the college.ya i admit it was a very bad deed i have done but i dont know at that moment i felt that i have to do it.i want to get acquainted with that thing..i drank 3 pegs.2 peg with water.last peg raw.nothing happens with me.except a bad feeling which gets me.i become very sorry for my deed that day later when i came from college.and i swered that i must not do that again because i dont know what effect it had on my heaklth but it had a very bad effect in my soul….and without soul i cant live.

then from that day after i felt a strange bond between me raj & jalal.then our project of presentation came.but my computer’s motherboard gets burned.thats why my whole project gets stalled.but as its a team project and i got an excellent team including raj and rahul.we made the best and costiliest presentation and documentation upon the subject AREA 51.in the time of project i used sanchita’s laptop for more than 24 hours in total.my whole documentation is made on her lappy.and for that i really thank her..

then came our internal class tests.and for humanities division we r very tired.its not that the subject is boring or the teachers are boring bt the things we have to do or doing are boring..and for that we sometimes loosing that enthusiasm..

in our vb exam many of our students boycotts the exam because the question paper is hard and none of the questions are discussed in the class by our respected teacher.

many more happens through these days..will tell u later….

bye