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One Day in Mindtree Exam....

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Today, well yesterday actually, we gave our Mindtree exams at our college. We prepared a lot for this but still felt under prepared. It followed AMCAT prescribed format. I am totally devastated because of that. I have disappointed not only many people from my college but myself also. Its the most important. I need to work hard and I will be working harder now. I will not rest during Durga Puja. Wont be watching any movies for pleasure. Wont be playing any games. But I will be solving harder problems by now.

From somedays, I am using IE11 and LibreOffice. Though they need to have more features and updates but still they are fast and eating up my battery and memory less. Though I have an ultrabook and i have upgraded my memory to 8 GB but still I think using resource friendly things will be better. I am now thinking about moving to Linux completely. Using windows is getting problematic day by day. Maybe its smooth but security and space hogging issues are making my life painful.

Again I need to study hard. Today i saw a glimpse of a timeless classic, Amitabh Bacchan's Deewar. Its nice. Missing my female best friend. I don’t know where our lives have parted. She is now so much bound into her life. There is no place for me except some formalities. The life, the spark in our friendship relation has gone. I need that back. From many day I am planning to meet with her in Kolkata but for some unforeseen circumstances I am not able to do that. I also have to take a book from her, the book i gave her and its very much needed for my campussings now.

Somedays ago I again told myself to write something in my blog everyday. But then again I get out of contents sometimes. Because my life is so mundane. Its so alone and filled with darkness. And talking about darkness my future is also seems to be. Well I agree that I am not an optimist in personal life but I am in my professional life. I seek purity and perfection so I stay hungry all the time. You may call me a fool but its the biggest driving force for me.

For the puja time I had a plan to view all the movies I have collected so far, pruning my music library by listening to all of them, installing Ubuntu on my machine and playing most of the games so that I can clean up my pc to some extent but as the time goes by I think I need to study only because no matter what ultimately my competency matters and nothing else. Entertainment will come and go. As our dean sir has stated, we have to leave something to gain something. And I am here sacrificing every happiness just to be more happy in life. I never stopped learning. I even learn from my peers and juniors. I have no ego in that.

Some people may think that to fulfil a page I am writing shits here but no seriously I don’t have much to offer today because I don’t have anything. Nothing happened in my life and there is no thrill. There is plain old black & white life. And maybe its true that I don’t want any spice now. Eating pale foods from many days perhaps that’s why I forgot the taste of spices and now my system wont permit me to have any.

Anyways, two people from my class have been selected for TCS and they will be joining shortly. Don’t know about the Mindtree exam today. But its my belief that many people will get jobs from my class in here, well certainly except me, because I gave such a disastrous exam. I wont say that is haven’t prepared for anything but its a whole new level of exam I gave. I need to do better once again. Have to start from the scratch and I know I will get no one who will help me. But still I will fight alone. I have no help for GATE and NET but still I am hopeful that I will be giving such exams and also I will prepare for AMCAT and ELITMUS. I need to shine, brighter than the sun.


Good Night

Thursday, September 25, 2014...

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Today I spent a peculiar day, in the morning went to have my pre-scheduled Audiometry tests at a local ENT doctor's chamber. What i realised is that Doctors and Lawyers have no shame in their eyes. They are always seeking the chance to rip out more money out of poor man just to quench their thirst of money. They are two too greedy animals in form of human. There were times when i used to hear god like persona of doctors and lawyers but now they are just leeches who suck blood-money from poor men and provides maltreatments and some doctors also abuses their patients. So doctors need to be killed brutally in public. So that other can feel what they are doing wrong. Even someday ago i saw an article about a doctor who killed a patient deliberately because of ill treatment. My father is a victim of ill treatment. My mother is also to some extent.

Anyway, I had no other way but to consult a relatively less bad doctor in my area. Frankly, I don’t trust any doctor instantly and in my locality I know most of the doctors and I don’t count most of them as qualified doctors even. They don’t know even the generic names of the medicines, they are just a leech of society who feeds on medical representative & common people's blood. Anyway after loosing lots of money in the doctor's chamber for some really silly cause, I saw that there is no time for me to go to college. I needed to go to college for my downloads. I don’t have much time before puja and there are loads of downloads left to be done. Thankfully all the games have been downloaded. Thanks to several repack groups out there, especially R G MECHANICS. I am very thankful to them to compress the games so that common people like us can download. Otherwise downloading a 45GB+ game is very hard even on a 20mbps+ connection.

Then i decided to take the day off as the doctor suggested me to take more rest and reduce my stress level. Yes it is very much true that I am taking very much stress. My life is full of stress and now its hard to tell that I am living a life or a stress. I slept this afternoon but then again as my nature of sleep goes its very thin and i wake up even in a slightest of sounds, light or discomfort. The doctor said that my ears are perfectly normal. As i was fearing that i was loosing my hearing slowly and my voice has been raised very much. The audiometrist assured me that i am not loosing my hearing. The doctor said that I am panicking because of some other psychological issues. He said that its because of my stress and depression. But tell me who don’t have stress and depression? There is NO sure-shot way to handle it. Someday ago there was a series of classes took place in our college from art of living. But I couldn’t attend it just because its way too costly for me to afford.

Load shedding has became an epidemic in Asansol and due to that we are also suffering from severe water outage. Its is the gift from state government to Asansol because we made BJP winner here. Well no matter what, BJP is far more better than TMC at this point in my personal view. Though I am apolitical and i know that whoever goes to Lanka becomes Ravana. Asansol has nothing to offer now. The whole India is nothing to offer to the COMMON man. Remember, I am not talking about the 1% of the society, the rich men, I am talking about the people like me. Who are belong to the masses and they are often overlooked. We are taken as granted and always oppressed.

Then in the evening I got an email from my college stating that Mindtree is coming to our college for an in-campus hiring and the preliminary rounds of online aptitude tests on Saturday so it means I have less than 48 hours to get prepared and I need to be all presentable. I need that job and in any way I have to get that job no matter what it takes i will try my level best. There are lots of people who want me to succeed and there are way more praying for the opposite but as i believe in karma i know that no one has the power to give or take away the job from me. If i am right and doing right, right is bound to happen to me. This is the way karma works and if its not working as we are expecting it to be then there are a bigger plan waiting for us all. But we much not stop knocking on the every door we come across. And inshallah someday, opportunity will knock on our doors itself.

Lastly I would like to say that its been many a days i am not talking fully and properly to my so called female best friend just the like we used to. Rather I am talking to another person al day long whenever i get any chance, who made me her bestest best friend. Its an honour to become someone's so trusted friend. Am I blessed or curse? Really its the question of the hour.

Wednesday, September 24, 2014

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This blog I am writing using the latest of LibreOffice. This is a test document as well as a very nice way to reintroduce myself to my blogging. Its been on my list from many day to write something on my blog. Recently I tested some new type of postings on my blog, basically they are of test pages. Then I told to myself that why on earth, I am not writing anything to it?

Recently I was being busy. Very busy into my life. It was going in a routine of waking up, coming to college, do the college and download some stuffs over the net and then going to food stalls eatig 1 big vegg roll and half plate veg chow and back to home, doing nothing, talking to my one new friend over Hike messenger and then going to sleep. I was working hard to study more but its not giving any fruit and in a way I was becoming more frustrated.

Some series of events took place. Firstly there was a news that the biggest of our Indian It company, TCS is coming to our college for hire. But after viewing their criteria requirement list I was depressed because according to that i am ineligible for their company and job position. That is no doubt heart brekening to any final year student, who invested lots of money for his education and now he came to his time of returning that money and still he is INELIGIBLE for the job.

But WHY the hell he is ineligible? Its because he has just a line below the qualifying marks in his Higher Secondary result. Or, some person have low marks in his Secondary exams, or someone has low marks in his graduation results, thats too because of the idiocracy of his university. Is it so needed for the job in IT? I mean all those subjects like Bengali, English, Hindi, Sanskrit, Physics, Chemistry, Mathematics, Biology etc etc etc ?? will he gonna be implement those in any IT industry? NO WAY MAN. No matter who says what. IT industry will never gonna need those things.

There is seriously something wrong about this once great nation. There are reservations based on caste and cadre where it is by default assumed that the lower caste students have money problem always, where it is completely different. The reservation should be solely based on the merit and proverty level not on some stupid caste system. But in Indian vote bank politics, it is happening from a long time and it will continue happen.

At the times of British Rule, to them we are all same old Indian Nigger dogs. And thats why they started to treat us all SAME. Being treated like SAME we become SAME and this sameness brought unity and we were able to force british to leave their 200 years old colony. Now, after so much cry and hue when we got out freedom then suddenly everybody becomes somebody. And as they say “when everybody becomes somebody, then somebody becomes nobody”. And thats what happening here right now. No one is giving value too anyone. Everyone thinks that he/she is too much important where its completely opposit. No one cares now a days what you are in reality. Its all about showoff.

Okk many of my readers may think that this person is completely frustrated but its not. I am a realist and i see the big picture very clearly. I have a broad vision and i am not afrad of anyone. Because freedom is for everyone. I dont care for any political party or any power. I have power in myself. Yes, i know that now a days our ruling state part TMC is telling everyone to kill and rape and thats too ina brutal form. They are killing raping people just like any political party does. Even the CPIM's hands are ful of blood but then again they took 34 years to become a monster and this new TMC party is already a behemoth in terms of bloodthrust. They are killing people, controlling police, and changing statements just like a gangster. In this new dawn of forwardness we are witnessing the rise of syndicates and mafia like any Italian gangster of USA.

Finally they beaten student of JU like street dogs without any warning. Its like British rule when they ysed to do that with students who tried to protest their ill doings. Well at that time i dont think this much brotality took place. I still remember the incident of Ashutosh college where a CPM student was killed britally by TMC and thats too within a months of two of TMC's coming of power.


Will you still call this madness? No. I will not. I will say thats its very natural. When you give anyone too much of a power. These kind of things happens. 

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