My Digitized Thoughts - Ramen Mukherjee ...

Not feeling that much good today i am feeling that somethingh is hindering my thoughts today my life could be better without all the bells and whistels it has as an accessory. I am very much in deep with myself today. I reconnected with myself. I feel that i need myself more than anything now. I was talking earlier today with one of my friend about the golden edge i have lived through, the golden age of cyber media and entertainment. Yhe glorious days of computer games which were not about only fancy graphics but about story and gameplay. The thrill it game. The vountless hours of sensible entertainment they provided. The game delivery system. The stylish NFO's. The awesome playing tricks of them. The NFO 8bit audios. Now a days the games are all about graphics and more graphics. The games are becoming huge day by day. One of the latest game sized about 43GB. And the game has even no substance in it. The movies i used to watch was all about good stories, acting, direction, thrills. Now movies are about special effects and nudity. Same goes for the songs which recently became melodyless. I am very afraid that spon all the sources of entertainments will collife. Well its justified also. Which voes around, comes around. Its thelaw of nature.

One of the trend in the pirated gaming market is taking pace once again is rip and repacked games. Though in my opinion games need to be ripped also now a days. Because the substance are all becoming less day by day in them and its getting loaded with unnecessary video graphics pictures and audio s whivh can either be easily removed or can be compressed to highest degree becaude playing the game and getting entertained and thrilled is what matters. Not those videos. I spent my days playing those games but now a days i feel reluctant.Previously scene release groups publishes games with a bit of art in them. Those nfo, custom installers, 8bit audios were awesome. Now a days its all about releasing the original iso with nosteam patvh or somewhat like that.

Today i am feeling very nostalgic about it. I am not blessed of friends. I have none i guess. People comes, people goes, only my empty heart is eternal. Its the life's truth that now maybe everything has became so fast fluid filled with more features but somewhere we lost our humane side. Now its more about ghz, mhz, mbps, gdps, rpm etc. No one now cares about being human, its all about greed. More food is what people want but somewhere we lost our capability to share. Online shopping sites sells products with an illution of being cheap but avtually we forgot the art of bargaining. In the illution of being a king, we were becoming slaves of this system. Now that even government is spying on us. We cant even speak our hearts off. State govt, national government even the foreign government like america is sniffing all of us's butt for possible conspiracy. In this time whom we call friends? The fake profiles in facebook? Even todays whatsapp and other messengers are filled with fake profiles. Whom to believe? How to believe? All those untangible bits of data who only consumes the resources but dont contribute to anything. I cant trust them anymore. I lost my appetite for online friendship. I guess i tried enough now. All are fake. Its not that the grapes are sour but i cant encourage some fake bits of facebook junk to cause me pain again.

I need something tangibe. Someone tangible to be precise. Both my real and virtual world is empty. And i took this oppurtunity to escape from this net world. I didnt became its slave hopefully and now i am trying to be its master once again. The old self of mine was 1000 times better than i m tpday. This degraded version needs the punch like the old one. I really dont know that the history repeats exactly or not. And i dont want to become anyone's deja vu. I want to become me once again. As i written in the heading of this blog. I wanna fly sometimes....

Bye

Yesterday I lost much of data. 4 games become all corrupted. It was one of the very frustrating day of my life. I wasted my full day yet i got only corrupted downloads. The main reason behing this is the problem with my laptop, os, download manager, antivirus, one fellow who was downloading junk eating up my bandwidth, the server from which i am downloading was giving timeout errors. Data parts were becoming corrupted constantly. Laptop was hanging. Antivirus was eating all the memory and download manager keeps on rebuilding old parts so my hdd was also busy so none of the downloads took place in between giving the other person in the room hogging up all the bandwidths. Even the totrent client stopped working because of this disk cache overflow problem.

I summed up all of this as my bad luck because there was no reason to happen all of these. That person always dpwnloads with me in a same high speed wifi connection in college. I never felt problem with him. I am using the most latest of hardware and softwares. All are updated and original. There was no chance that all of these could go wrong. Even it rained all through yesterday so there should be no heating or dust problem. And as i was in the building so far from the window that moisture can come up in my laptop causing problem. And i am not doing these downloading forst time. I was doing these over the month.

Even when i went to market to put a screen guard in my tab there happened a problem with it, even all of my strict supervisions, i dont know how, a particle of dust entered inside the lamination film, and its now looking very odd. My 80rs got wasted. Then i went to each puri sabji, the famius of the market, and i burnt my mouth and tongue. I stopped eating there. Then i went to eat veg chow, again my trusted shop, as i was in empty stomach from morning, i was madly hungry, there i saw a huge crowd, all lined up to have some chow. I waited there and when finally i got mine, the chilly sauce again pained in my already burn inside of mouth. I was so disgusted yesterday.

My best friend, who is still in lots of problems, both mental and physical got again wet in this unexpected huge monsoon. Caught up in the middle of her work, she got wet and i know what happens next, she will suffer from cough cold and fever like always along with a sprained heel. Feeling sorry for her. She was too caught up with my bad luck. I know i am an unlucky charm in my close one's lives.

I am writing this post from my tab using blogger app. This was the most important app i searched in my previous windpws phone but i didnt found any app worthy to use but this app for android made by google is good. Lets hope this will help me to publish more blohs in the future though it has very less formatting tool so i dont know how it will look once posted. Also as i am not using ms word here so you will see lots of spelling error, i guess and as i always mainted a "one page" formula for my posting so that the posts will never get too long, but here i am unable to do so.

But i guess new should always be tried. Isnt it? :)