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Saturday - 30/03/2013

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After one holiday trip to my aunt, I am back to my shit hole last night. And I got to learn that no matter where you are, your luck will always follow you, even till the end of the world. I took some of my books there. I thought i would become the next Einstein but alas, it didn't worked that way. The place was utterly boring. Really the place should get an award for it.

I am continuing on having my shortage on internet. Got a discounted Reliance MNP offer which gives me 5GB of data for a month for 160INR. It also had a benefit, as the retailer said if i install another 160rs recharge i will get double benefit of 10Gb on next recharge but as my luck goes, i tried doing so and the good shopkeeper told me that the offer just expired. What a luck !

Experienced the horror of mobile internet customers, in many way. First with speed & jitter and second was with uploading. As most of my life is online i need to upload and download files frequently. But with this connection a simple uploading seemed impossible.

Moving on from that i got a Vodafone postpaid connection which was given as a loyalty program from Vodafone against my father's post-paid connection. Activated it last night. But the call rates are awfully high.

This morning i woke up with a call from my best friends, while she kept on telling that she ruined my morning, I am pretty sure that i ruined her, bigtime. Its really complicated and confusing between us. I keep on ruining her moments yet she again invite me for doing so. My first call from the new postpaid connection was also dedicated to her and no matter how hard i try i couldn't faked my voice to her, she caught me instantly. An amazing bond between us. Too bad she is engaged to someone else despite of all my efforts to make her mine. Its very true that not everyone can buy a Ferrari. They have to get satisfied by the picture of them in posters or by playing them in some motor sport video games.

That's the true misery of life my friend, we never get satisfied by what we have and no one does as we all belong to this human class, as said by one of my professors at college. Talking about college, its going war over there i think. Ha ha sadly they don't know what they are after. So naive they are. Egoistic yet feeble. Old enough to be immature again. Contradicting characteristics.

Slowly i am feeling that i should install MS Office 2003 again. One of the best office suit i have used. This kingsoft office is of no use. Practically its a demo version with all advance features left out. The most needed features are absent. Even the basic text alignments are not working. I don't know why. Yes the installation is very light weight and they should get credit for it but what's the use of having this light installation if the needed features are out? I can say one thing. No one can beat Microsoft in this Office software. There might be several alternatives of it, but none of them are close enough.

Its Saturday morning. Enjoy. I have a class of MBA now. Where i don't wanna go. Lets see what happens.

Bye

Some Words About Leadership...

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A leader first thinks about the majority always, i guess you are familiar with word MAJORITY and what does it signifies and i am very happy that the majority is happy and satisfied. the leader always bothers about majority's happiness, not for someone special's but for that he/she don't have to show off. leader always seeks the greater good, not the individual goals. only selfish people thinks about their selves. a leader can't be selfish. and also he/she cant change some adult person's motive. he/she can only try to influence. leader is the one who is suppose to be able to provide quick judgement and instant decisions. all decisions are self made by every leader my dear because sometimes discussing for every words hinders the progress. and he/she is responsible for the outcome. while the cream for his decisions are always enjoyed by the majority he is serving, but the cons are always endured by his own self. its a game of thorn not throne. for better or worse.its not that decisions will be favor of EACH & EVERY one but it will be for MAJORITY's good every time otherwise people can call it tyranny and then they can break free by doing rebellion. but if some people become too blind to see the common good then no one can make them see unless becoming a tyrant. not all leaders are Adolf Hitler, some are Nelson Mandela too. some people are too reluctant to realize but they WILL realize, maybe someday. that's the hope every leader keeps, yes criticism towards any decisions is welcome and it should be and lessons should be learnt from every incident. but if every action is directed towards teaching someone else some LESSON then the consequence will also follow, as stated by newton's 3rd law.

Anyways common people has always one choice to overthrow any leader if the majority don't like him/her. the option is always OPEN...

and for the unity.ha ha ha ha... if there were any, then people would think one more time before breaking it. anyways any fruitless attempt is WELCOME.

A Leader.

Tuesday...

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Another Tuesday. From past three Tuesdays I have been trying to finish this article off but couldn’t. Long waiting for Friday. No, I don't wait for Saturday, as it’s the day which I hate very much. Even Saturday has proven always good to me, I even born on Saturday but still the food I get in this day is unbearable. I have returned from college now, feeling very dizzy, I need to sleep; I know that, I have to stop taking MENTAT in morning also, I should restrict it to night only. It’s a medicine I am taking to improve my attention and concentration power but it has a down size. It makes me more lazy and I always feel sleepy.

I was getting lots of warnings that My MS Office 365 Beta subscription is now about to end in 24th this month. Its 26th now and I am using that disabled software. Its hilarious. No internet in home. Only some MB of 3G free data in mobile phone. I am out of Facebook and I don't feel like doing it anymore. Therefore, I can say that I am not at all addicted to it. Yes I recharged couple of GBs in my phone but I am not sure how long they goanna stay.

Life's journey is cumbersome and it does shows a million things on the way. Some could be predicted. Some are expected. Some are unknown and these unknown things makes up for the experiences. They may be bad or good in nature but the result or the end product or the experience you might say is always for good if observed closely.

They say never to reveal your true self to others for that they can try to harm you in zillion ways. Never ever revel your weaknesses and failures always boast on your achievements but the real thing as I experienced is that these kind of people are like dogs, they can sniff out your fear instantly. So it’s better to stay alert that they may backstab you rather than staying over confident that they don’t know anything about you. That’s why I speak my life out here. So that maybe some people will know where I failed and they can either gain experience or they can make plan to backstab me, for that I don’t care whatever they are doing. I am always prepared for the worst.

Yesterday I looked deep into Srimad Bhagwat Geeta, to find some answers. What I found I am not sure of but I found way and mental peace and some golden words to believe on. Yes one of my teacher has helped me a lot to see a way, the path was shady in front of me. I just identified it by his generous help.

The problem with my college class is that the pupils there are not of clear mind. They are from different backgrounds and they lack in one common place. That is to understand the situation as a whole and follow through the common task as their Ego is bigger than their hearts. They always look to themselves like some selfish persons.

Feeble persons always stay dependent on others. Or the very good friends does. And depending on others make their self esteem zero. But they don’t realize it, until it’s too late. Yes my sir is right. Some people should be left into their situations. It may take a long time but they do realize it in the end.

Shall I write more? Naah. Its of no use to elongate.

Bye

Roller Coaster Ride...

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Wow, what a week I am having. It’s good. It’s fast. It’s fantabulous and also it’s hard. This speedy week was hard to digest and yet so vivid. I dated with my friend; I assembled one of the most powerful gaming rig of the city for myself. Tested so many things. Playing games, well once again. Life is again becoming happy. But I have to keep in mind that the sadness is also following me in shadows. Life is not only a bed of roses. For me it’s always crown of thrones. Sometimes happiness refreshes the memories. Sometimes it reminds me how feeble our good times are.

I met new people.  Many people came into my life. My life should be saturated because of them. But it is not as a matter of fact i feel more lonely inside. Why? Well i don't know. But maybe its because i am feeling emptiness of a special person, who cant come into my life, who is now a part of someone else's life. But am i really cheating with myself or the people who are about to come, maybe for temporary once again, or permanently for a brief time? I don't know about this but i am very certain that it is not what i am doing. It is what happening. People say that what happens, happens for a reason, maybe this is too happening for a reason, i don't know about it yet but being a negative person i cant hope for good. I am worried for the bad.

Finally i made my desktop all by myself and it is the most powerful desktop system of the city. I am not very proud of it as a gaming machine is incomplete without a gamer, and i lost that gamer long ago. Now who is left is just a half the man. And he don't neither have the time nor the will to play more but still somewhere his gamer instinct drives him to get going for more.
I got so many small things done, yet many are left but still feeling a kind of accomplishment.

I got my results, i passed the first semester with mere average marks in both my degrees but i didn't failed in any of the subjects which i doubted to get a back. I am thankful to the god and my wonderful instincts for that. Really, i passed MBA's statistics paper with just pure instincts. They call it luck but i say its my knowledge, the general knowledge about the subject. Its maybe not too deep but its workable. I even scored high marks in NIIAT exam. Really i was having a nice time. I thought to celebrate for myself, with myself, as i don't have anyone, but my pocket said otherwise. So i stopped my horses and told myself NEXT TIME BETA.

But yeah meeting with HER is purely a nice celebration on itself. I was so sad at first as she couldn't come on out first date but in next day she made a time for me, though brief but i was very glad to have her there. We chatted long. So in a way i can see that the whole time i was having through these weeks are choreographed already, what i needed i get. The time, the will, the money and the situations all were in my favor. It was a lucky time.

I was in a limelight of many people now. It is also a proud thing, isn't it? But i know that somewhere some people are turning against me. I am gaining more foes than friend and they are all hidden. No, they are not all day dreams i am having. I know it all coming. I can see it. I can smell it. Its my life dear friend, i am dwelling in it. For long. For better or worse it is my destiny to reach, My curse to bear.

There are so many projects pending for myself. Small things which i need to do now, as i have finished making almost all the things necessary for those jobs. But my utter laziness is the main constrain here. Yes i confess that i am a lazy person, i may have the potential to become great, well many people say that but i strongly doubt that because every circuit has a circuit breaker and my laziness is my own special kind of circuit breaker.

They say i am good at studies. Okk fine. But i don't study and the marks i get is the lowest kind of average  marks. I was not in a proper competition, but i am now in a hard competition. Thanks to my Burdwan & Calcutta university counterparts. My life has became hell. I am studying more yet feeling incompetent. As usual no one there to help me and as usual i don't need anyone's help :P lollz.. I am born to solve other's problem, to help, and probably without any expectations.

They say that windows 8 is designed to save batter but I don’t see any improvements. Oh ya yes… I was writing about my life no?? Well now, just as I have started writing this paragraph, it again restored itself to its shitty version which I was dwelling previously. Yes I am completely used to of it, if not, then I am at least assured that the life has started to suck again and its now in it’s normal avatar. I don’t have to worry more about the NEXT.

The roller coaster ride is seems to at it's end.

Good Night.
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