Yesterday was a hectic day. I
consulted a good psychiatrist, who knows me. I went to bank and gave
requisition for a new debit card; it’s going to charge me ₹204. Also I was very
happy to see the amount I got as an interest for my bank account for this half.
It’s good. I also met one of my known person from my college and Facebook and
another one I met, who is my classmate. Our college will start from 8th.
My bank started charging ₹15 for
3 months of SMS alert service. I guess it is the result of this ever-rising
price of system maintenance. Well this is not fair I think. They are charging
me more than ₹100/year for my debit card service and now this SMS alert charge.
So I am paying to the bank ₹160/year in total but even in a very good year I
don’t earn this much of interest from bank so this means I pay to the bank more
than they pay me.
Anyways as far I can remember and
my phone’s contact list are showing one of my friends called me last night but
I was feeling too drowsy that I couldn’t talk to her. I don’t know she minded
anything or not. There are many who get offended much from me, well I did cared
for them but they seems to take me for ranted and thought me as a cheap item
but I guess they don’t understand the fact that I am giving value to them. So
in this world giving someone value and priority seems cheap and if u don’t do
that u are counted as rude. It is funny. But I think now is a hard time when I
have to choose the latter. I need to build a cocoon around me because this
whole world just irritates me.
Anyways, I started my medicines
from tomorrow but they are of high dose I think, today I spent my entire day
mainly sleeping. But anyways I am sure I am going to adjust with that also. Now
I am just writing gibberish in here, as I have nothing to do. I can’t
concentrate on studies, don’t want to play games, I have no more good movies to
watch, lost my appetite for music. Days are bullshitting me. I miss those good
old days when music are good, movies are fine, games are worth playing, now
it’s all about erotic videos, sequels and graphical effects. And they call it
the evolution of entertainment industry. What a joke. Another American
propaganda.
My MBA exams are nearby and I
know I have to take a 4 days break also for this exam from my MCA class and I
know again some of the teachers will get offended unnecessarily for this. This
is my luck and there is no exception for that. I don’t expect of any either.
People can only show sympathy and that’s it. They don’t come to solve your
problems like some of the fools do, like me. when I see people in problem I try
to destroy the root of it but when you do so and problem gets solved they will
call you a fool as you gave priority, more that it is needed, well by their
sense. People are so self-centred and they are the actual fools who get
satisfied by the solution, which only clears out the outer layer.
One more interesting thing is
that from some days, I am having an immense urge to try out pork. Not only pork
but salmon, catfish and other things too, but mostly pork and pork made things
like chops stews and bacon. Well the only thing available in my city having
pork is pork chow. The main reason behind this maybe the TV programs of TLC and
FOX Travel. On an average day they show many programs on food and most of them
contains dishes made out of pork.
I grew expert on pork foods and I
don’t know why I am also thinking about trying some of it. But I should not
forget about my high cholesterol and uric acid problems. Also there are social
problems too, as a Hindu I may not be directly forbidden for eating out pork
meat but none of my family and friends have tried it and they will always be
against it. In addition, pigs are here are not white good pigs which western
country uses, these are black pigs which mostly eats the potty from sewer.
Anyways I guess this is why most of the people hate this thing but it is no
doubt tasty also because I see no decrement in crowd who are willing to have a
bite.
Well as a foodie from the heart,
I hope to taste all the good dishes of the world but so far, I only managed to
taste some of the dishes from my own native caste. So my dream is very big no
doubt. The hindrances for me are obviously the money, I don’t have enough money
to buy good ingredients and without them no dishes can be made possible.
Cooking from my perspective is like a chemistry. You can’t compromise with the
ingredients.
And in my damned city the second
obstacle is the unavailability of spices and herbs used in foods. People are
here very much satisfied by plain rice, lenticel soup & curry. They don’t
need any more thing. Their dreams are also limited. They used to say that they
are born out of that food and they will die with it. So they don’t bother about
getting some different tastes. They are too busy in their own hustle that they
don’t find any time for thinking about these and if anyone does it they will
label him as a spoiled person.
I know it’s a general psychology
that people don’t accept the new but I never seen people like them who don’t
want to leave the old also. Yes, I know that there are places like Taliban and
Afghanistan but I don’t believe that my city also possess the same kind of
mentality but thankfully in different way. Time changes but people’s mentality
don’t.
They should read Geeta, at least
for some change. And some needed knowledge. BTW religious books does helps
sometimes, atleast they give some fake hopes but Adwyaita philosophy is
something different. Its based on causes and effects. It has explanation for almost
everything of life yet its different from other religious texts which only
contains some fairy tales. But they are popular as people are fool. But to
quench a intellectual brain’s thirst I see no alternative to it. Well godly
texts seems foolish sometimes but Pagan texts are good. They saw science in
everything. Yes. Masons went wild but they too have created something good for
brains. At least they didn’t filled human’s brain with prejudices.
Okk I guess my Singharas has
come, gotta go. bye
