TO ARINDOM,

AMAKE DEKHAS NA. AMI JOKHON SOTTY TA JENECHI TOKHON DEEPA ER SATHE AMI O KOSTO PEYECHI...SELFISH ER KONO BYAPAR NA BUT YES AMI JANTAM TUI JANLE ALWAYS ULTO BUJHBI TAI TOKE BOLINI...TAI AMI JYOTI KE O SCRAP KORINI...R AMAKE BOJHASN NA SOTTY TA...AMI E NOI CLASS ER SSOBAI JANI...1 TA MANUSH BHUL BUJHBE ...2 TA BUJHBE ...SOBAI BUJHBENA.

TUI JAADER KOTHA BOLCHIS TARA AMAR CLOSE FRND TOR KI MONE HOY AMI BHUL JANBO?

MR.ARINDOM MUKHERJEE TOR UPORE AMR BISWAS KI KORE BHENGECHE ,KOTOBAR BHENGECHE ,TUI NIJEO BHABTE PARBINA BUT JUST HIRAK SIR ER KOTHA SUNE AMI TOKE KONODINO KICHU BOLINI JOTO TA POSSIBLE HOYECHE FRNDSLY THEKECHI R SOBAIKE THAKTE BOLECHI.

U HATE THEM?
I HATE U.
UR COPYING RATHER MOCKING OF ME & MY STATUS ...I HATE THAT
TOR SEI CSK ER KACHE SOBAIKE KHAWABO BOLE NA KHAWANO - I HATE THAT
R TOR EDER DUJON KE KHARAP BHABE DEKHA ...I HATE THAT TOO.
U ALWAYS COMPETE ME.SUBHAJIT ER KAACHE AMAR NAME E ONEK KICHU BOLECHIS.AMI SOB JANI.ARO ONEKER KACHE /MAJHE MAJHE OPEN CLASS E AMAR BYAPARE EMN EMN COMMENT DOOM DAAM PASS KORECHIS JETATE AMAR BHISON KHARAP LEGECHE. KINTU TUI NIJEKE ALWAYS EMN DEKHIYECHIS JENO LOKE TOR UPORE ATYACHAAR KORCHE TUI DHOYA TULSI PATA.
ETC ETC ETC

JANTE CHAAS KOBE THEKE?SINCE THE EARLY DAYS OF 1ST SEM ,,
AMI SOBAR FRND TOR O HOTE CHEYECHILAM KINTU TUI NIJEI AMAR SATHE MUKH MISTI BT PECHONE GALI TYPE BEHAVE KORECHIS.


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SOB CHEYE MOJAR KI JANISH TO?
TUI ALWAYS NIJEKE BHALO BHABISH NIJER DOSH DEKHIS NA...BUJHTE O CHASNA..ONYE KICHU BOLLE SCENE CREATE KORISH...TAI SOBAI TOKE ERIYE CHOLE. AMI ONEK CHESTA KORECHI TOKE BOJHABAR ,OPEKHA KORECHI JE SOMDAY TUI BUJHBI BT KOTHAY KI ...... U CN NEVER CHANGE ATLEAST AMI ONEK CHESTA KORECHI BT R POSSIBLE NA...


JUST AMAR PATIENCE CHILO BOLE AAJ O TOKE FRND BHABAR CHESTA KORI...BUT SEI DIN AMAR PATIENCE BHENGE GECHE ...TOKE AMI DIRECT ONEKBAR BOLECHI BUJHIS NI INDIRECT BOLECHI BUJHIS NI... LAST E AMRA SOBAI BOLA CHERE DIYECHI ...KARON TUI PROTITA KOTHAY ULTO DHORIS ..


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AUR TO SUBHAMJYOTI,

POOCH LENA ARINDOM SE KI AGAR WO UN SABHI KO HATE KARTA HAY AUR TUMHE BHI LINE NAHI MARTA TO JAB JAB MAIN TUMHE SCRAP KARTA HOON USKO KYUN BURA LAGTA HAY? SAB KUCH EISE HI MUH SE NAHI BOLA JAATA KUCH CHEEZ SAMAJH NA BHI PARTA HAY ...AUR MAIN BARABAR SAMAJHTA THA...

AUR SUNO ....YES MONIDEEPA MERI GF THI AUR CHUNKI ARINDOM USE CHAH KE BHI NAHI PAA SAKA HE HATES ME FROM THE CORE OF HIS HEART WO BAATO BAATO ME MUJHE MOCK KARTA HAY MUJHE TOK TA HAY AUR MUJHE HATE KARTA HAY ....I NEVER HATED HIM TILL TODAY ..


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TO ARINDOM,

U KNOW KONO JINISER GORBO KORLE SEI JINISH TA KONODINO SUCESS PAYNA BA TEKE NA ....AMR KNOWLEDGE NIYE KONO GORBO NEI ....NEI KENONA JEDIN GORBO ASBE AMI KICHU SIKHTE PARBONA R JA SIKHECHI TA O NOSTO HOYE JAABE ....AMI NIJEKE SOBAR CHEYE KOM SIKHITO MONE KORI JODI MONEY KORTAM BEST TAHOLE AMI SUBHOJIT HOYE JETAM OR NIJER TOP KORA ER BIRAT GORBO KORE PARTY DITAM ....AMI KICHU KORNI KENONA AMI JANI AMI THAT MUCH KNOWLEDGEABLE HOLE AJKE BCA TE BOSE THAKTAM NA ....

TAI AMI NA NIJEKE BIRAT MONE KORI NA AMI NIJEKE TOPPER MONE KORI NA AMI KONO SIR ER KACHE OR JUNIOR ER KACHE EI JINISH NIYE CLAIM KORECHI BT YES SOBAR KACHE SWIKAR KORECHI RAAJ AMAKE MATH NA DEKHALE AMI FAIL KORE JETAM.

ITS NT JE AMI RAAJ KE BHOY KORI ,RAAJ O SETA JAANE KHUB BHALO KORE BT I M HUMBLE AND THANKFUL TO HIM ..

AMI KAUKE DEKHAI NA JE AMR KNOWLEDGE ACHE ...


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TO ARINDOM,

SELFISH JE SUDHU NIJER MAANE CHARA ONYO KARO KICHU BOJHENA.....DESPITE ALL UR ANGER FOR ME ,TUI JOKHON CLAIM KORLI JE TOKE KEU PROJECT DEKHAY NI SOBCHEYE AAGE AMI ARGHA & ARJUN KE JHERECHILAM TOKE NAA DEKHANOR JONYO THEN I CAME TO KNOW THE TRUTH ....SOBAI JAANE ETA KENONA AMI SOBAR SAMNE ODER KE JHERECHILAM ...

taholei bujhe dekh ke selfish r ke na ....

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FINALLY TO ARINDOM,

TOR SATHE ONEK KOTHA BOLAR CHESTA KORE CHI ALWAYS BT TUI AMAKE ULTO BUJHECHIS R BTW TUI AMAR KOTO CARE KORISH AMAR AMI KHUB BHALO KORE JANI ...TOR SATHE TAI AMI KOTHA ONEK DIN THEKEI OFF KORE DIYECHI ASA KORI LOKHYO KORECHIS ..KI KORE BHABLI JE AMI TOR SATHE KOTHA BOLAR CHESTA KORBO ? JOKHON AMI TOR KACHE KEU NA R CHILAM O NA KOTHA BOLAR THEM HOW COME U WUD BE AN IMPORTANCE TO ME?

YA U HAVE SOME DOUBTS CLEAR KORE DILAM ....

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hey fellas,

planned yesterday got idea from one of my friend and today i converted my this website into my website. i m very happy today to see a domain behind my name. though it is free domain but still i got www in front of me and in last co.cc it feels good. also i changed my twitter’s background ..

there are numerous plans ushering into my mind. well don't know whether someday i can achieve what i want to get but i m sure i will get success one day ..maybe i have no money in the pocket right now. feeling good for some days maybe i have found one real good friend who cares for me and feels happy when i call or sms .returns my every miss call and sms no matter what the time is ...don't ignore me …

i hate the people who always try to break relation rather than making it in first hand and i faced this type of people much. i believe that i m a MAN not a god who is without any flaws…yeah i have more flaws than any average boy same as my age but still i m a lovable boy …anyone can be my friend and i m proud of this ..he who cant ,well must have some problems with themselves ..i believe in real friendship …

i realized that the change is futile and it is inevitable. so i changed myself without changing my ethics. because it is my ethics which is my stand point. i disagreed to loose it early and now again …maybe nothing has changed significantly but i think i would think for good…first of all MY OWN GOOD

hell yeah “party like a rockstar” is on the loop …all of my things are running smooth except few which i will make right .i started a new life and this time it will be me whose decision will be final one. i m me and proud to be me no matter how bad i am or how illegible i m still i m feeling good. i felt that i need no inspiration because i m the inspiration for myself.

the last word “if god can do it we humans can do also ..because we r made from them ..not only to serve them”

ciao

hei fellas,

hw r u all ? i hope all of u r doing great. ya i m doing well. class tests r at the door. knocking me down by the unsolved equations. i hate maths though most of the time i do math of my life..whether i won or lost i hate maths but somehow it likes me…

got a very large and fat book of accountancy yesterday … don't know i m gonna complete it or not someday. future ahead of me is very dark. don't know what to do about it. every time i try to forget my past it haunts me down…

i know no1 of u reads my blog nor u want to listen to my gibberish as because i don't copy paste interesting things or say tasty words to u all …its all about my boring life and monotonous problems…

life has become very busy for me no time for anything…actually i try to do all the works and end up messing them all…i know i m not a timesharing device nor i have the power to multitask anything ..

anyways i love my juniors…i only go to the junior’s classrooms to make some friend and hopefully to get some1 special…ha ha ha…i hate ragging so i m against it. i give toffee to first years…ha ha ha …my friends tell me that i should take ragging as it will increase my respect to them or else they will not respect me ..

but i think ragging should be limited to the constructive one…i dnt believe in giving fear to anyone. by fear u cn only win fr a small time and after the fresher's day they will slang us but if i conquer their heart by love they will respect me till they die .. i believe in friendship not in fear …my kingdom would be of hearts & love nt of fear..

some of my friends tell me that they have suffered ragging thats why they r doing that i say that i have faced some of the worst ragging because of my arrogant attitude but i dnt ragg any one..i want to end the cycle and i hoped that my fnrds will company me in this path but they left me all alone many a days ago … so for me its WALK ALONE ..

much for today.
will talk later…tataz

hey guys its me all again.today i get wet in extreme rain willing fully.. i always wanted to get wet in rain. subhojit forgot me.actually my number.giving him misscalls. installed some theme and ringtones in my n73. its needed to be pimped. though all today’s smartphone has the features that it provides me but to some extent it is special to me.

rimjhim e dhara te ..moon chay harate – means in this rain i wanna lost my heart …for u..to u…but as i have no one yet my heart is safe with me though it is broken into countless pieces. sometimes i just try to gather them but fail every time. i know a few guys with great calibre to handle this and to show middle finger to the world but i may show it but cant stay alone. this is my weak point ..

nothing to tell u guys more today …

bye

The Ten Commandments for C Programmers
(Annotated Edition)

by Henry Spencer

1	Thou shalt run lint frequently and study its pronouncements with care, for verily its perception and judgement oft exceed thine.

This is still wise counsel, although many modern compilers search out many of the same sins, and there are often problems with lint being aged and infirm, or unavailable in strange lands. There are other tools, such as Saber C, useful to similar ends. ``Frequently'' means thou shouldst draw thy daily guidance from it, rather than hoping thy code will achieve lint's blessing by a sudden act of repentance at the last minute. De-linting a program which has never been linted before is often a cleaning of the stables such as thou wouldst not wish on thy worst enemies. Some observe, also, that careful heed to the words of lint can be quite helpful in debugging. ``Study'' doth not mean mindless zeal to eradicate every byte of lint output-if for no other reason, because thou just canst not shut it up about some things-but that thou should know the cause of its unhappiness and understand what worrisome sign it tries to speak of.

2	Thou shalt not follow the NULL pointer, for chaos and madness await thee at its end.

Clearly the holy scriptures were mis-transcribed here, as the words should have been ``null pointer'', to minimize confusion between the concept of null pointers and the macro NULL (of which more anon). Otherwise, the meaning is plain. A null pointer points to regions filled with dragons, demons, core dumps, and numberless other foul creatures, all of which delight in frolicing in thy program if thou disturb their sleep. A null pointer doth not point to a 0 of any type, despite some blasphemous old code which impiously assumes this.

3	Thou shalt cast all function arguments to the expected type if they are not of that type already, even when thou art convinced that this is unnecessary, lest they take cruel vengeance upon thee when thou least expect it.

A programmer should understand the type structure of his language, lest great misfortune befall him. Contrary to the heresies espoused by some of the dwellers on the Western Shore, `int' and `long' are not the same type. The moment of their equivalence in size and representation is short, and the agony that awaits believers in their interchangeability shall last forever and ever once 64-bit machines become common. Also, contrary to the beliefs common among the more backward inhabitants of the Polluted Eastern Marshes, `NULL' does not have a pointer type, and must be cast to the correct type whenever it is used as a function argument. (The words of the prophet Ansi, which permit NULL to be defined as having the type `void *', are oft taken out of context and misunderstood. The prophet was granting a special dispensation for use in cases of great hardship in wild lands. Verily, a righteous program must make its own way through the Thicket Of Types without lazily relying on this rarely-available dispensation to solve all its problems. In any event, the great deity Dmr who created C hath wisely endowed it with many types of pointers, not just one, and thus it would still be necessary to convert the prophet's NULL to the desired type.) It may be thought that the radical new blessing of ``prototypes'' might eliminate the need for caution about argument types. Not so, brethren. Firstly, when confronted with the twisted strangeness of variable numbers of arguments, the problem returns... and he who has not kept his faith strong by repeated practice shall surely fall to this subtle trap. Secondly, the wise men have observed that reliance on prototypes doth open many doors to strange errors, and some indeed had hoped that prototypes would be decreed for purposes of error checking but would not cause implicit conversions. Lastly, reliance on prototypes causeth great difficulty in the Real World today, when many cling to the old ways and the old compilers out of desire or necessity, and no man knoweth what machine his code may be asked to run on tomorrow.

4	If thy header files fail to declare the return types of thy library functions, thou shalt declare them thyself with the most meticulous care, lest grievous harm befall thy program.

The prophet Ansi, in her wisdom, hath added that thou shouldst also scourge thy Suppliers, and demand on pain of excommunication that they produce header files that declare their library functions. For truly, only they know the precise form of the incantation appropriate to invoking their magic in the optimal way. The prophet hath also commented that it is unwise, and leads one into the pits of damnation and subtle bugs, to attempt to declare such functions thyself when thy header files do the job right.

5	Thou shalt check the array bounds of all strings (indeed, all arrays), for surely where thou typest ``foo'' someone someday shall type ``supercalifragilisticexpialidocious''.

As demonstrated by the deeds of the Great Worm, a consequence of this commandment is that robust production software should never make use of gets(), for it is truly a tool of the Devil. Thy interfaces should always inform thy servants of the bounds of thy arrays, and servants who spurn such advice or quietly fail to follow it should be dispatched forthwith to the Land Of Rm, where they can do no further harm to thee.

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If a function be advertised to return an error code in the event of difficulties, thou shalt check for that code, yea, even though the checks triple the size of thy code and produce aches in thy typing fingers, for if thou thinkest ``it cannot happen to me'', the gods shall surely punish thee for thy arrogance.

All true believers doth wish for a better error-handling mechanism, for explicit checks of return codes are tiresome in the extreme and the temptation to omit them is great. But until the far-off day of deliverance cometh, one must walk the long and winding road with patience and care, for thy Vendor, thy Machine, and thy Software delight in surprises and think nothing of producing subtly meaningless results on the day before thy Thesis Oral or thy Big Pitch To The Client. Occasionally, as with the ferror() feature of stdio, it is possible to defer error checking until the end when a cumulative result can be tested, and this often produceth code which is shorter and clearer. Also, even the most zealous believer should exercise some judgement when dealing with functions whose failure is totally uninteresting... but beware, for the cast to void is a two-edged sword that sheddeth thine own blood without remorse.

7	Thou shalt study thy libraries and strive not to reinvent them without cause, that thy code may be short and readable and thy days pleasant and productive.

Numberless are the unwashed heathen who scorn their libraries on various silly and spurious grounds, such as blind worship of the Little Tin God (also known as ``Efficiency''). While it is true that some features of the C libraries were ill-advised, by and large it is better and cheaper to use the works of others than to persist in re-inventing the square wheel. But thou should take the greatest of care to understand what thy libraries promise, and what they do not, lest thou rely on facilities that may vanish from under thy feet in future.

8	Thou shalt make thy program's purpose and structure clear to thy fellow man by using the One True Brace Style, even if thou likest it not, for thy creativity is better used in solving problems than in creating beautiful new impediments to understanding.

These words, alas, have caused some uncertainty among the novices and the converts, who knoweth not the ancient wisdoms. The One True Brace Style referred to is that demonstrated in the writings of the First Prophets, Kernighan and Ritchie. Often and again it is criticized by the ignorant as hard to use, when in truth it is merely somewhat difficult to learn, and thereafter is wonderfully clear and obvious, if perhaps a bit sensitive to mistakes. While thou might think that thine own ideas of brace style lead to clearer programs, thy successors will not thank thee for it, but rather shall revile thy works and curse thy name, and word of this might get to thy next employer. Many customs in this life persist because they ease friction and promote productivity as a result of universal agreement, and whether they are precisely the optimal choices is much less important. So it is with brace style. As a lamentable side issue, there has been some unrest from the fanatics of the Pronoun Gestapo over the use of the word ``man'' in this Commandment, for they believe that great efforts and loud shouting devoted to the ritual purification of the language will somehow redound to the benefit of the downtrodden (whose real and grievous woes tendeth to get lost amidst all that thunder and fury). When preaching the gospel to the narrow of mind and short of temper, the word ``creature'' may be substituted as a suitable pseudoBiblical term free of the taint of Political Incorrectness.

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Thy external identifiers shall be unique in the first six characters, though this harsh discipline be irksome and the years of its necessity stretch before thee seemingly without end, lest thou tear thy hair out and go mad on that fateful day when thou desirest to make thy program run on an old system.

Though some hasty zealots cry ``not so; the Millenium is come, and this saying is obsolete and no longer need be supported'', verily there be many, many ancient systems in the world, and it is the decree of the dreaded god Murphy that thy next employment just might be on one. While thou sleepest, he plotteth against thee. Awake and take care. It is, note carefully, not necessary that thy identifiers be limited to a length of six characters. The only requirement that the holy words place upon thee is uniqueness within the first six. This often is not so hard as the belittlers claimeth.

10	Thou shalt foreswear, renounce, and abjure the vile heresy which claimeth that ``All the world's a VAX'', and have no commerce with the benighted heathens who cling to this barbarous belief, that the days of thy program may be long even though the days of thy current machine be short.

This particular heresy bids fair to be replaced by ``All the world's a Sun'' or ``All the world's a 386'' (this latter being a particularly revolting invention of Satan), but the words apply to all such without limitation. Beware, in particular, of the subtle and terrible ``All the world's a 32-bit machine'', which is almost true today but shall cease to be so before thy resume grows too much longer.

i cant believe it first time when at 12:50AM MB called me and told me that we 3 are the BCA toppers of Asansol Engineering College. i heard from Arga that result has came out and i started to search in the site but as always our university site is being government funded is slow and is absolutely out of maintenance. so the pages didn't came in first i viewed my full result just couple of minutes ago. almost after 24 hours when its got published.Life has changed for me already. It Is changing in a very rapid and diverse manner. i am half past dead already. i never thought that i could get pass at least because i gave the whole MATHS exam copying Raj’s copy. in this situation where my father is paralyzed. no fund of money .no idea about the treatment .we are puzzled and frustrated. very much depressed. NO friends by my side .. i gave my 2nd semester of university exam.

one of my phone which i gave to my father got its screen broken in my bag. my mom’s phone’s battery got juiced out or it got some cell damage either in charger unit of the phone or the charger itself. i told them to send them for repair. but my parents denied.To talk about phones. my first phone was a Nokia n73 music edition and Ayan was the first person whom i shown it to. i remembered that day but as i am very irregular to my own blog i couldn't wrote it. i think a lot but do few.

Anyways my old hand made shoes give me NEW bogs in my feet every time i wear it i am having pain in my feet plus the immense toe pain.

Today was puja of Holy Deity Maa Manasha …from 3 4 generations in my best friend Saumya’s home it is observed with utmost delegacy and priority. i was there for the whole evening and enjoyed very much all those crowd and controlling the crowd was fun. all are eager to get the PRASAD of Maa Manasha. and bullying over some over smart guys who though me and us fool.

The fist year has came into college. they are boring. already half dead. don't have any dream. any dedication for their stream for theirselves and most importantly for their dreams. they don't dream it is most disappointing. they lack the fire in themselves. some are bad students no doubt but other came here because they didn't got any chance anywhere. this is very bad. no one wants to become BCA. only the people who don't have any choice come. and they are seeking for opportunities if they get they will go. maybe there is only fool left in this whole universe whose main aim is to become a BCA > MCA > Mtech IT and most probably its only me… :P

good night guys feeling very sleepy after a very tiresome day.

bye

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I can’t believe. I can’t imagine and I can’t accept that Ayan is dead….ever after seeing his dead body burnt in front of my eyes at burning ghat [Hindu cremation place] ..He was my long lost friend from my childhood school Ramakrishna mission high school.. And he was also classmate of my HS high school of Santinagar….i bought my red side bag seeing his blue side bag of same company … he bought a state of the art scientific calculator …… I also bought by the help of his father not so costly like that but without his or his father’s help it wouldn’t be possible….

Our friendship started from the class of book-keeping which we have as our additional subject in class 9-10 at mission. Our passion for computer video games makes us good friends. Then we came to shantinagar. We started to be in same class. Science batch of 2009.but…

Suddenly our life changes when a girl came between us, Poulomi, Poulomi Acharjee is her name, that bitch 1^st flirted with his heart then with brain and made me his enemy. She flirted with me after she has done with him and made him to think that I’m his worst enemy and also done the same to me for him. But I have one rule, unless or until someone personally done anything badly with me I don’t consider him as an enemy. And he who is not my enemy is friend. So I always considered him as my friend. Though he gave me life threat but I know on what circumstance he have done so. Ya for some time I was mesmerized by that bitch. But soon I realized his agony for me. From that time he ended all sort of relation with me. Even residing on same area we don’t cross each other’s path. Ya we have lots of common friends. She showed him that as I’m of greater caste than him she is pressurized from home to love me. What a lie. And she ended up ruining my life too and she is ruining my another friends life who is also involved in breaking my relation SOURAV SEN.. But that’s another story…

Don’t know why I always thought that one day we all be much grown up, much mature to understand the misunderstandings we have and sort it out. I had much to say to him. But he didn’t gave me the chance to do that. How can I tell her that I was ny his enemy I was and is his friend …maybe he knew now. Spirit knows it all….

May his soul rest in peace. Please pray for him ….

bye

Hey friends,

It’s have been a very long time. I know. I know it every time. But believe me it’s been a rough week for me. Not only I was engaged in my father’s check-up, my friends are also turned back to me, my life became hell not for that, but for the extreme poverty I am facing, or I am also having problems with Monideepa, my desktop isn’t ok yet, that cheater Swarnadip Chowdhury of Binary Labs till date haven’t given me any replacement of my under warranty faulty motherboard. Maybe he deals in smuggled goods, that’s why he can’t give full warranty and this time also he is giving me a graphics card without any seal. His business is finished for his tendency to loot people. He is 420 guy. But despite knowing of these I have to buy from him because only he told me that he would settle something for my old faulty graphics card which is again in warranty and sold by him to me.

My father is having a very bad time. And with him we are also facing a very hard time. For his treatment all the money has spent of our possession now we are on sympathy on our relatives. They are helping us with money. All the status we had once is Brocken. All the pride is lost for this. Whenever people start to giving you money and seeing you in eyes of sympathy, you will lose all your weight to all. And to me empty stomach is much better than the food of mercy. And that too is provided by relatives. Even my uncle recharged my cell phone with 111 & 65 rupees respectively. And I have to report them every bit of incident every now and then like a dedicated informer.

My friends say me that I have many problems and that too isn’t known to them properly but for that they stopped every communication with me unless it’s needed by them. I have told you guys many a times that yes I have faults but I believe I m a pure soul, what I’m inside I show it outside like a transparent crystal. I’m not a saint but I don’t break relationship like they used to do. My close friend Monideepa is always habituated to break rather than build and that a very irritating part of her nature. In times people show their true colour and I realized that. This is my bad time. I have no money. No support. No mental help. I needed someone at my side but everyone refused to stay with me. But I know I will have time of mine. Then they will too have to follow my lead and then help will not be given by me to them. Because a friend in need is a friend indeed and I saw that none of my so called best friends are real friends. They are just pigeon of good times.

In the other hand Kuntalika is constantly helping staying by my side no matter what happened. Yes I broke down 1 day ago and now I’m rebuilding myself from the ashes. I endured a lot and now it’s a payback time. I don’t need them who don’t need me. I’m on my own from my birth and I shall be so I accepted the truth and decided to go on, on my own.

Yes it has been a fact that I don’t revise things because I’m just confident about what I’m writing anywhere as I forget to check my wallet before leaving house but bless fully I never ran out of money anywhere and my writings were never rejected because of that. That’s why I also forget to proof reading this blog too and this blog contains all the grammatical or spelling mistakes I have ever done. Though I use MS Word 2010 as my default text editor but I never correct because I simply don’t have time and I want to express my feelings through my blog not to show how much English I know.

Tomorrow my college is re-opening for 3^rd semester of my 6 semester long BCA graduation. I’m pretty excited about it.i hope I will get some good things from it. Education I will get either ways but I just want some happiness. Because I don’t have anything to live for.

Good night dear friends may you all have a nice day tomorrow.

bye