My Digitized Thoughts - Ramen Mukherjee ...

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bhromorera thamiyeche niswas newa,
tomar oi aankhir paare he tilottoma
bhuboner jyoti haraye jay tomaro aankhir cchotay,
mohini kemone kori byakkhan,kemone?
bhasa nai.bhasa nai.bhasa te haraye jai
dwidhahin bhabe dwondhe porechi,

bariye diyechi bolikuthar tomaro haate,
mukti dao aamay, jukti dao amay
keno heribona oi noyon jora?? othocho,
ami nisswo.rikto.roktomoy,hariyechi hridoy..
hoyechi hridoyheen, nishpeshoner nirjatone,
sopechi tomare amaro praan..
tomar oi du chokher bish e hoyechi neel,
tobu ache baaki, aache baaki howa bileen..
dwonsho.ogo dwongsho korecho amaro
tomaro aankhiro pollobe, muktodharar kollobe
motto hoyechi kaaler neshay,
kalo o aankhir majhdhare.firiye dao
firiye dao amr mon ke bondi korecho, tobuo
keno kore rekhecho tumi mukto amare?
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Inspiration : Ms Suchetana Som
Thank You miss to inspire me to such extent....
Model : Guess who ??
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Thank You

It's not my fault if I can't help looking at you. It's not my fault if I can't stop calling you. It's not my fault I do like you. My only mistake was to fall to much in love with you.yes !!! Sometimes - no matter how long, or how much you love someone, they will never love you back and somehow you have to learn to be okay with that.I sit here and think about everything that happened this past week and not a single tear runs down my cheek. Maybe its because I'm too hurt to cry, or maybe I'm just to mad at you.And even though you lied, and even though you pretended to care I can't seem to get you out of my mind and even though it seems like I should be over you, with every tear that falls, it reminds me of how much I am still in love with you.Maybe just maybe its my heart's way of telling me this isn't over yet.The truth of the matter is, I still have feelings for you. And no matter how many times I tell myself that I'm better off without you, a part of me just won't let go.I feel like I am sitting in a room full of people that I love, and you know what, they just don't care that I love them. They don't care whether or not I live or die. To them I'm just another boy, just another stranger. To me, they are my best friends, the only people I have left because they left me.I'm glad you're happy. I can't say that I'm completely happy for you but I guess that's just a part of life, I'll always have feelings for you but the rest of the world is forcing me to move on.I never regretted telling you I liked you, I only regretted never hearing what you really thought of me.Do you want to know what my problem is? I will tell you what my problem is, I LOVE YOU I love your name, I love the way you look at me, I love your gorgeous smile, I love the way you walk, I love your beautiful eyes, I love to imagine how you look like when you are asleep, I love the sound of your laugh, to hear your voice fills my entire heart with an indescribable feeling. I love the way I can be having the worst day of my life and seeing you completely changes my mood. I love how when you touch me I get weak, that is my problem... but you must know that, I'm the one you're meant for and you're going to come back to me. So sure, break up with me now, but I'm telling you, you'll be back. You'll be back when you realize that you broke up with the one man who was meant to be just with you. But see, the thing is, you just better hope the man is still there.....

sokh kore kinechilem matching laptop,
ekhn dekhlei chokher jol pore top top..
toke ene diyechilem tor mobile cover,
kokhono ki seta dekhe mone pore amay?
amay ontoto ekbar?
jani change tui kore dibi, hoyto diyechis kore,
dhormotolar more e sobe to mele..
kine dewar loker obhav nei, nei obhav icchar,
dekhis ektu daam bujhe kinish,
duniya te obhab nei thokbar
ami sikhechi thoke thoke, chaina tui o sekh
tor jonyo roilo pujor suveccha onek...

- This is my first Bengali article published in my website. the title name in Bengali is suggested to me by my dear brother Swarnendu Mittra. thanks to you bro this poem has been dedicated to one of my bestest friends who left me in the middle. love you dear. i will always be…

Yes, she broke up our friendship with me; the first question aroused on my mind is that why it takes two people to get onto a relation but 1 people to break it? Why it’s so damn easy to her while it’s so f’king hard for me? Ya its affecting me, decaying me from the core and the most obvious reply I get from others that why I fell in love again and again? The reason is that the love never dies and love always finds its way. Maybe she will again realize worth of me, but that maybe too late for her then. Because I will not be the same. And I will not always stay this good, sometimes my inner beast will dominate me.

I began new life with new friends and new responsibility at old place and old environment. Increase in loads of life. Life plays in its own tune. And I am seems to getting lost in it, finding my true self. Getting the mathematics right.

Learning about life in details now, now I am in masters’ maybe tats why the world comes in full HD details now. It’s very amusing to see that how much I think and yet so less I write because day by day I started to feeling like that my words are getting complicated, sometimes even its hard for me to encode it properly.

Lost many friends, well whom I thought of as friends, some pretended as friends. So showed care other just sympathy, I hate to being in both situations. Gained even more friends who are doing the same and as always I am hoping to get some good friends from the crowd too.

Now a day’s people store their memories in cloud and I store my feelings in crowd. Because I lost my faith on individuals so I lifted the discriminency, I express myself to all, it gives me a quick way to vent. No matter what people think of it, I simply don’t care. I don’t care what I am to you; I just care what you are to me.

Happy Puja Guys..

hey u know what sweetheart
i just discovered that i am long dead
its just the zombie i'm carrying with me
i have become that "DOES-NOT-EXIST" person in everyone's life
they wrote my death certificate long ago
and i was thinking that i'm alive
what a joke.... isn't it?

yes i know i have seen the worst. i have been to the worst, the the limit of worst is seems to be expanding with every moments i pass. i realized that life is just about to go from one breath to another. on every last breath we take, it becomes the past.

no one has time for me. no one needs me. i just became a tool of timepass. a person of need. no one remembers me till they find no one else. is that a blessing? because no one needs me. and i don't like to be needed. i like to be remembered missed.

but why i think about her so much? who is she?
why i expect her to remember me? love me? reply my sms?
she just did the timepass with me she remembers me when she is waiting outside library or in a queue of bank in boring hot summer.she remembers me when all other people switches their phone off on her face or when she needs any specific information.

she does not even bother to inform me her whereabouts despite knowing the fact that i stay worried for her. specially now when she has become totally out of control of even herself.

yes i know she have someone now.

newer, exciter, richer ........he is more fun and adventure to be with.
she now got the freedom of doing whatever she wants to do.
that boy is enjoying her.
everything is now glittering around her.everything is shiny.
and that limelight, i ' m lost. lost and forgotten.
even my phone calls doesn't help her to remember my name

perhaps there is no ME in there.

they say, out of sight out of mind..... very true.very\
people should realize that copy pasting a quote is easy, realizing them is difficult, living them is next to impossible.

today when i was returning from the rooftop of my apartment, i looked at the sky and told. god even u didn't wanted me to stay here, to cry for her, to mourn for myself, first u tried to give me fear thundering the sky, now you are raining. even you don't like me then how can i expect her to like me, she is just a mortal.

but you killed me, killed me in their mind, their eyes...
you murdered the very fundamental thought of my existence in their mind..
yet you call yourself the merciful father.

shame on you