Roller Coaster Ride...
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Wow, what a week I am having.
It’s good. It’s fast. It’s fantabulous and also it’s hard. This speedy week was
hard to digest and yet so vivid. I dated with my friend; I assembled one of the
most powerful gaming rig of the city for myself. Tested so many things. Playing
games, well once again. Life is again becoming happy. But I have to keep in
mind that the sadness is also following me in shadows. Life is not only a bed
of roses. For me it’s always crown of thrones. Sometimes happiness refreshes
the memories. Sometimes it reminds me how feeble our good times are.
I met new people. Many people came into my life. My life should
be saturated because of them. But it is not as a matter of fact i feel more
lonely inside. Why? Well i don't know. But maybe its because i am feeling
emptiness of a special person, who cant come into my life, who is now a part of
someone else's life. But am i really cheating with myself or the people who are
about to come, maybe for temporary once again, or permanently for a brief time?
I don't know about this but i am very certain that it is not what i am doing.
It is what happening. People say that what happens, happens for a reason, maybe
this is too happening for a reason, i don't know about it yet but being a
negative person i cant hope for good. I am worried for the bad.
Finally i made my desktop all by
myself and it is the most powerful desktop system of the city. I am not very
proud of it as a gaming machine is incomplete without a gamer, and i lost that
gamer long ago. Now who is left is just a half the man. And he don't neither
have the time nor the will to play more but still somewhere his gamer instinct
drives him to get going for more.
I got so many small things done,
yet many are left but still feeling a kind of accomplishment.
I got my results,
i passed the first semester with mere average marks in both my degrees but i
didn't failed in any of the subjects which i doubted to get a back. I am
thankful to the god and my wonderful instincts for that. Really, i passed MBA's
statistics paper with just pure instincts. They call it luck but i say its my
knowledge, the general knowledge about the subject. Its maybe not too deep but
its workable. I even scored high marks in NIIAT exam. Really i was having a
nice time. I thought to celebrate for myself, with myself, as i don't have
anyone, but my pocket said otherwise. So i stopped my horses and told myself
NEXT TIME BETA.
But yeah meeting with HER is
purely a nice celebration on itself. I was so sad at first as she couldn't come
on out first date but in next day she made a time for me, though brief but i
was very glad to have her there. We chatted long. So in a way i can see that
the whole time i was having through these weeks are choreographed already, what
i needed i get. The time, the will, the money and the situations all were in my
favor. It was a lucky time.
I was in a limelight of many
people now. It is also a proud thing, isn't it? But i know that somewhere some
people are turning against me. I am gaining more foes than friend and they are
all hidden. No, they are not all day dreams i am having. I know it all coming.
I can see it. I can smell it. Its my life dear friend, i am dwelling in it. For
long. For better or worse it is my destiny to reach, My curse to bear.
There are so many projects
pending for myself. Small things which i need to do now, as i have finished
making almost all the things necessary for those jobs. But my utter laziness is
the main constrain here. Yes i confess that i am a lazy person, i may have the
potential to become great, well many people say that but i strongly doubt that
because every circuit has a circuit breaker and my laziness is my own special
kind of circuit breaker.
They say i am good at studies.
Okk fine. But i don't study and the marks i get is the lowest kind of
average marks. I was not in a proper
competition, but i am now in a hard competition. Thanks to my Burdwan &
Calcutta university counterparts. My life has became hell. I am studying more
yet feeling incompetent. As usual no one there to help me and as usual i don't
need anyone's help :P lollz.. I am born to solve other's problem, to help, and
probably without any expectations.
They say that windows 8 is
designed to save batter but I don’t see any improvements. Oh ya yes… I was
writing about my life no?? Well now, just as I have started writing this
paragraph, it again restored itself to its shitty version which I was dwelling
previously. Yes I am completely used to of it, if not, then I am at least
assured that the life has started to suck again and its now in it’s normal
avatar. I don’t have to worry more about the NEXT.
The roller coaster ride is seems
to at it's end.
Good Night.
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