One Day in Mindtree Exam....
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Today,
well yesterday actually, we gave our Mindtree exams at our college.
We prepared a lot for this but still felt under prepared. It followed
AMCAT prescribed format. I am totally devastated because of that. I
have disappointed not only many people from my college but myself
also. Its the most important. I need to work hard and I will be
working harder now. I will not rest during Durga Puja. Wont be
watching any movies for pleasure. Wont be playing any games. But I
will be solving harder problems by now.
From
somedays, I am using IE11 and LibreOffice. Though they need to have
more features and updates but still they are fast and eating up my
battery and memory less. Though I have an ultrabook and i have
upgraded my memory to 8 GB but still I think using resource friendly
things will be better. I am now thinking about moving to Linux
completely. Using windows is getting problematic day by day. Maybe
its smooth but security and space hogging issues are making my life
painful.
Again
I need to study hard. Today i saw a glimpse of a timeless classic,
Amitabh Bacchan's Deewar. Its nice. Missing my female best friend. I
don’t know where our lives have parted. She is now so much bound
into her life. There is no place for me except some formalities. The
life, the spark in our friendship relation has gone. I need that
back. From many day I am planning to meet with her in Kolkata but for
some unforeseen circumstances I am not able to do that. I also have
to take a book from her, the book i gave her and its very much needed
for my campussings now.
Somedays
ago I again told myself to write something in my blog everyday. But
then again I get out of contents sometimes. Because my life is so
mundane. Its so alone and filled with darkness. And talking about
darkness my future is also seems to be. Well I agree that I am not an
optimist in personal life but I am in my professional life. I seek
purity and perfection so I stay hungry all the time. You may call me
a fool but its the biggest driving force for me.
For
the puja time I had a plan to view all the movies I have collected so
far, pruning my music library by listening to all of them, installing
Ubuntu on my machine and playing most of the games so that I can
clean up my pc to some extent but as the time goes by I think I need
to study only because no matter what ultimately my competency matters
and nothing else. Entertainment will come and go. As our dean sir has
stated, we have to leave something to gain something. And I am here
sacrificing every happiness just to be more happy in life. I never
stopped learning. I even learn from my peers and juniors. I have no
ego in that.
Some
people may think that to fulfil a page I am writing shits here but no
seriously I don’t have much to offer today because I don’t have
anything. Nothing happened in my life and there is no thrill. There
is plain old black & white life. And maybe its true that I don’t
want any spice now. Eating pale foods from many days perhaps that’s
why I forgot the taste of spices and now my system wont permit me to
have any.
Anyways,
two people from my class have been selected for TCS and they will be
joining shortly. Don’t know about the Mindtree exam today. But its
my belief that many people will get jobs from my class in here, well
certainly except me, because I gave such a disastrous exam. I wont
say that is haven’t prepared for anything but its a whole new level
of exam I gave. I need to do better once again. Have to start from
the scratch and I know I will get no one who will help me. But still
I will fight alone. I have no help for GATE and NET but still I am
hopeful that I will be giving such exams and also I will prepare for
AMCAT and ELITMUS. I need to shine, brighter than the sun.
Good
Night
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