My Digitized Thoughts - Ramen Mukherjee ...

Well, I am writing from my tablet using blogger official app so prepare to get some grammer, spelling, typing, indentation and other such errors in this post. I will try to minimize but you all know how the mobile writing is. Though it has 7" of real estate space but still it feels crampy. Are you here to see the little hard truth? Well forat of all i have to tell you all that it will be small to you not me and its not hard to you either but to me. Then why i am sharing? No cause here. I write in my blog whenever i feel like. Its not because of anyone but maybe because of some causes. Good bad alike.

Maybe this post is my last post from my tablet as i am about to sell it. Thinking about buying a second hand iPhone 5s. Yes dear Americans, most of Indians can only buy second hand Apple stuffs. Its not like your movies where you all use apple all the time. I want to end the whole digital version of me. I am going to do it soon. I am just waiting for the right time. I was in the net before my digital avatar and i am again feeling the need to go incognito. And i am prepared for this.

Why? Because i have seen the world enough. Its not auitable for me but for the other me. I am good at myself. Others are just morons. There will be no harm to anyone nor anyone is going to shed ter
Ars fpr me and even if someone does cry me a river i dont care about it. No one is for anyone. Everyone is on their own. No one kills, no one dies. Its all just a part of a big choreographed drama. We are just the the players with expiration dates. Waiting for the curtain call.

I admire women. I respect them because they are far superior beings. Superior in every way of breaking hearts and bending rules. Superior in manipulation. They can make you do anything for them. They can make you dance in their tunes wheather you like it or not and wr have to dance because we dont have any other way. And after you complete your part they are so hearlessly remoursless that they can shed you out like a yellow leaf. I have been manipulated many times and in the end i was the one who always gets all the blame where the main culprits gets away with clean collers. So you see there is no way to not to respect them. Sooner of later you have to follow their commands conciously or the other way around. They will get whatever they want. And you call me misogynist. Unless someone have any first hand experience how can they understand it? They cant be anyone's friends, like feline species they are selfish. I find it disgusting to not have people who want equality. Everyone is chauvinist. And thats ridiculous.

oh yes it is a Sunday. People call it fun day. I call it the dumbest day of my week.y? because Sunday i have nothing to do. Morning gets wasted totally by tuition. I maybe the dumbest smart person on the planet but surely I am too dumb to understand girls. Or maybe I understand them but not a particular one. Feeling like a couch potato right now.so much hard labour wasted.so much dreams vanished.so much wishes killed but for what? nothing? goes in vein?

Weeks have been passed. Students are prepared all over the west Bengal for their final test and here I am sitting in my room updating status and writing blogs. Sometimes I feel like shit. Really man I want to study hard but if I do I realize every time that I am already putting my best to it and I need to get a life. Mindless thing it is but I have no life. Loneliness is my only friend. My room is the only where I can be free, and I have only 1 person to tell all my thoughts, share all my laugh and cry no she is not my gf though I proposed her many times. Anyways she is more than a gf to me.is it very wrong to be addicted to her? I mean I am alone and I need someone. Anyone…

Its afternoon, normal people are enjoying the rest of the day and here I am sitting like a old person. Thinking about bizarre things. i am very possessive. This is a very bad thing for the person I like. They might feel choked. But I care for that and try not to be like that all time. I don’t know what am I thinking right now but it is for sure I need to tell something to someone and I can’t that’s why my brain is keep telling me to yell anything I want but I cant. Something is preventing me for doing it. All these and for heaven’s sake I cannot bear it anymore the duality in my nature is killing me from inside. i m torn apart. Does anyone care? No one cares for me.no one.

I don’t know is that a charm of mine or an dark aura which cloaks me from outside? Am I that invisible? Why no one sees me? I am 5 foot 10 and yet no one looks at me? I don’t think I am that bad looking? When I was small people used to tell me that who becomes the first on study will become everyone’s favourite but he did not told me that people would also jealous of him too. People will always want him to screw. Even the god himself is jealous of me. I know why because I am the god in living perhaps.

Is this is a dream and totally factious? Why I am not so normal? Or everyone else is acting abnormal? I don’t know. People maybe act normal and behind their mask they r more freaked out than me.

Some got love some r none.my pledge to girls is that please don’t hang on us guys. we are human too. Please have mercy on us too. ya I have to beg because world is now a days revolving around you guys. I have talked to many people. Some of them are men some of them are women and finally I understood that I have to beg. This is the new world order perhaps or the oldest one.

Yeah my new phone is working fine. But the nokia mail service isn’t. I didn’t found anything wrong in my phone. So finally, I think that their servers r screwed. I need a smps which would cost me 4100, a ups which again will cost me almost the same price of smps, a ram for 1500rs and my laptop’s battery is also crapped. i need that one too. and have to shell out 5000 or more total estimated cost of 15000.and I don’t have that much of money neither my family does and everything is very needed right now. i need to have some money too.to make my savings upto 1 lakh.that was my dream and one and only one dream that I m following to make it happen.and I know I will.i dnot have time I have only 1 year to make it happen.and I m very short on budget right now.has anyone ever noticed that why my blogs always contain exactly one page full of a MS word document ?? no one I bet.ha ha .its the way of ramen Mukherjee…

bye

Hi guys,

I m here to tell u something about LOVE.which i realised and felt..

LOVE.a four letter word.actually a pretty small word.but perhaps one the very powerful word known to mankind.they says humanity is based upon love.if so then why Merry McDallen is forbidden to love Jesus Christ? They say love is the root of all problems then my question is why we fall in love again and again?does we human love to love?if that so then why hatred becomes a very powerful emotion exactly equivalent to love?why the world now is filled with hatred more than it is filled with love where love is the core?in my sence all other emotions or passions there are love is the most unconditional thing.people also said that love is often unconditional or pure love is unconditional or anything like that.but as opposed to hatred which is purely unconditional love isn’t.u only love the people whu loves u.bt u can easily hate people who even might nt know u.like i personally hate osama bin laden bt does he know me?NO.nw there maybe some argue come.like many people loves Aishwarya Rai Bacchan ,though married she is queen of nt all bt most Indians [no offence] nw is this love?does ash knows evry men who likes her?NO.then is this love?the men would say YES.bt i realised that it is only a fantasy.it never last long.because before Ash it was Madhuri Dixit before madhuri it was Hema Malini and before hema it was Madhubala and so on.who was once dreamgirl of evry indian.so there comes another point that if people calls it love then its proven conditional.u r hit.then i love u.if u nt then i will forget u.so u see there also still some condition.at a rather bigger aspect.and if its NOT love then i call it infatuative fantasy.if its fantasy then its nt love for sure and then the whole point of conditionalism gets void here.bt wait.

Love has many different kinds.mother’s love.father’s love.frnd’s love.sister’s brother’s love.girlfriend’s love.wife’s love.etc etc etc..they all have their own conditions.the first and very prominent condition is to love.if u dnt love they will nt love u.if u r nt obedient to ur parents they will nt love u.if u dnt give gifts wife will nt love u.there also comes the libido aspect.if u cant satisfy ur parner physically then she/he will nt love u.or will cheat u.then how can love is unconditional?some people even might answer this questions.they might say that ya i can love someone who dnt love me.i can die for him/her although he/she dnt love me.bt i say that there sstill some conditions left.the condition is “i like/love u”.yes this is the prime condition.i love someone thats why i love that someone.whenever my love will fade my LOVE to him will end.nw the first love is the condition and the second love is the effect.let me explain –

I love someone.i like that someone.i like everything of that someone.i feel good.i need that someone.i feel enchanted being with that someone.its totaly my affection.it doest matter that someone likes me or not BUT I LOVE THAT SOMEONE.and my affection is purely my thing.its my will.but whenever my thing will get end my love will also end with it.and as evry human being is selfish to some extent [actually because our subconscious brain is very selfish by nature.it slowly kills our oun human body if it have to do so .. for details see discovery channel’show and selfishness is again a condition for many human activities both good or bad..much to gyaan isn’t it?? Ha ha ha].so love they do is for their own cause.because THEY LOVE.nt for the sake of that someone.it is the true nature of love.being conditional.

It is natural instinct in us, in evry living being.most of the animals are monogamous in nature.bt there are also some so called devoted lovers among those wild beasts.bt if u watch them closely their love is also bound by some need.some condition.if the partner is good then only their relationship continues.we humans cant leave with the partner who cheats us.dnt believ us.hav no faith.dnt respect the our family & values & etchics.we dnt love them.then its also a condition.isnt it friends?What u guys think?write to me.reply me in anywhere u can.comment me.blog me.scrap me.mail me.anything.the problem with u guys that u never reply.thats why i cant come to any conclusion.anyways i never loose hope for reply.

sayonara