Recovering From Writers Block...
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After long silence of 3 Months,
21 Days, 2 Hour and 3 Minutes, I am again here to write a few lines. Where was
I? I was here, in this plane, observing things silently. Why didn't I wrote
anything? Because I didn't felt the urge to. I mean what’s the point? There is
no audience. I just write my mind off here, not to please someone. I write
about myself and my life and no one gives a damn about it. Anyways, what did I do
in these days?
Well, I prepared for the company
where I got a job. Saw tons of movies, downloaded tons of contents, listened to
a few songs, no books these days except study ones, no games for me either,
though I downloaded some, also I am doing my final year project, joined a group
in college. This group made me very busy. I like it. I like being busy. I like
forgetting all the pain I have in my life. No offence, but I won’t be comparing
my pain with some other’s. I respect mine more.
Every day I tried to write a page
here. But I couldn't find any words to write. Call it my writer’s block. So I kept
myself quite. It was on my to-do list. It was on my notes. I looked at it all
the time still find no way to do so. My life is upside down. I am too busy to
look into it. Lost my last remaining best friend. Well our relation was ended
long ago. I just signed the contract few days back and she seemed happy.
There is another person who wants
to be in my life but I have absolutely no feeling towards her. Can't betray or
disrespect someone’s feeling. It’s better for her if she don’t come inside my
life. It’s better for her because as she has said, her life is also messed up. I
have respect for her. And also our stars don't match. I have somewhat little believe
left in this astrology. Can't risk her life because I am a risky job myself. On
the other hand the girls who is very compatible with me refused me few days
back and now in love with someone else. This is how screwed up I am. Love is
not potty which can be forced. So I won’t be forcing myself to love someone, I did
it in my past and it didn't turned well for me.
Slowly I am getting addicted to TV
series, now a days I look for better series. I am already up to date with Arrow
and The Flash. CSI:Cyber seemed boring to me. Now watching Constantine. Waiting
for Game of Thrones Season 5. Also after Constantine I will start Vikings.
Deleted some of the series from my HDD because there is few space.
Windows 10 is coming and I am
hoping to get a copy for free as they are giving it away. I am also looking for
a smartphone to buy because my employer won't be allowing any laptop or tablet
inside campus so I am going to live a pretty boring life in coming future for 90
days at a stretch. Also for this my plan of buying a 2TB external HDD is cancelled.
My tablet OS has been upgraded to
KitKat and no improvement yet. Well its working fine for me. I don't want to
sell it but still I think I have to do it soon. That makes me sad in all the
ways. I am awaiting my final joining letter and I don’t know when I will be
getting one. Till the day I stopped updating my windows 8.1 and reverted back
to windows 8 I am going absolutely fine with no space issues. So the moral of
the story is always advancing forward is not a solution to a problem. Sometimes
u need to step back.
As our department’s project room
is not fully ready yet, we don’t have UPS there with PC, that’s why I have to
bring my home UPS to the scene and now I can’t switch on my home desktop and
play any games. Summer is going to be boring. That I can say and well as I can
still bring the UPS anytime, I don’t want to jeopardise my project and the
final semester marks of my teammates.
I know probably you guys are
cursing me by this time now but hey my blog, my choice :P
