My Digitized Thoughts - Ramen Mukherjee ...

This is yet another totally pissed off day of mine. The day went very bad and that’s just because of a person who ruined it. But in the end, is it really her fault? She is neither my friend nor my enemy. Still it irritated me much. Maybe it is my fault that I have failed to keep my inner peace. I behaved badly today with other people when I was pissed. It is my fault to exhaust my anger on them. When I wanted to talk I was turned down by people and so I was very sad and angry for that. I feel ignored and avoided. But maybe it is my fault because I expected more from them. I stopped talking to many of my regular people who by the time changed and showing their true colour. I feel neglected. When they don’t have time for me why I would kill my time for them? They will only remember and enquire about me when they need me. And I refuse to be anyone’s tool of need. People don’t have time for me. Fair enough. I won’t be demanding any time from anyone because I have seen the real version of them. People don’t have any priority for me. Good. Now I can show my middle finger to them with ease. People don’t give a damn about me. I know that. Now I don’t give a damn to them.

But again in the way of taking cold revenge from them am I not becoming like one of them? It’s like “what you hate, you become” is getting true for me. Whom I hate, am I not slowly becoming of the member of their club? The inner me, the true me is dying somewhere out of agony and a new me is being born. And that me will be hated by the real me forever. And the cycle will keep on continue. What will be the method to stop this once em for all? Once I had a very good friend whom I thought that she will be with me forever but in the process of doing friendship I forgot that nothing is this world is meant to be forever. And I don’t find a friend in her now. Everything is lost. I have lost my two of best friends to someone who were new in their life. Everyone is busy and I too want to be busy for that. Why should I be alone? What is my fault that I have to bear this curse on me?

Even now a days I stopped watching Facebook messages too. It’s a fool’s hope to expect that someone will talk to you there. When the reality is no one is dying out there for me. And no one will be. Everyone is so self-centred and concerned about themselves that they remain in their little selfish cocoon. They only talk to people of their deed and need. They don’t miss people. They don’t want people. They want people in their friend list for getting huge likes and fancy comments on their utterly shit statuses or bogus pictures. Any monkey now becoming a photographer and any bitch is becoming a model. What a joke. Really! If you don’t talk sweetly and if your words is not oiling their huge ego filled ass then they will show their true colours which is even darker than the black hole itself. Facebook is a total waste of time and productivity.

People are fake here. And though foreigners did have some courtesy towards their social life we Indians are shamefully savages and are master is abusing anything. And Facebook is being abused by Indians. It is totally gone abyss here. Fake people, fake lives, fake talking, and fake feelings. Everything is either fake here or because of some competitions. The competition for likes and comments. The competition for making long friend list. The peer pressure to show yourself cool is one of the biggest driving factor of those Facebook nonsenses. And another cause for these bullshits is too attract the opposite gender. It is still in the level of insanity in the case of boys but the girls have gone totally insane and shamefully they have crossed all the lines in this field. They treat boys like garbage. But at the time of getting likes and oily comments they don’t think twice of getting them. It’s like these girls think that being a girl it is their birth right. I don’t know but recently I grew utter disgust for my respective opposite genders. Their mentality has been degraded. They have grown like the biggest show-offs of the earth. Their pretty faces even can’t hide their dark nature.

No its not “grapes are sour” for me. Whatever I have said here is the normal things over any SNS which any one can observed by anyone if they are very keen to know the truth without being biased. My respect for selfish females are degrading. And I am very afraid thinking about the day when there no respect will be left in me for them. May god don’t bring that day.

Good Night

Now a days what I observe is that the holi, like any other occasion, only means taking three different colours in three fingers and colouring own face and giving a selfie in the Facebook is all that is left of holi in the current generation. Not only girls are indulged in this show off games but shamefully men are also in it. Which also reminds that gender barrier is nothing but a mental divide we have created to satisfy our own ego. We are all humans in the end.

Everything now a days is about the show off. People just love to show off everything they got. And thanks to the Facebook they get every tool they needed to do so. It now also gives the option to show off moods and what any people is doing having drinking eating visiting and all those mindless stuffs that a person can fill up the internet with their utter rubbishes. Yes I am too one of them. People at Wikipedia and Khan Academy are the people who are filling the cyber space with productive informations. These are too crowd driven. Ok, khan academy is not that crowd driven like Wikipedia but they are surely miles ahead than Facebook. Even twitter limits the shits in it but limiting to 140 characters and several API call restrictions. But Facebook seems to encourage this just to generate random keywords to feed its algorithm of advertisement to generate pure revenue out of it and thus this whole system is crowd driven cash.

Now, there is another aspect of this show off. Not everyone show offs just for the sake of show off. Today’s generation is very much busy and they are separated with each other in terms of mental space. Youngsters are texting each other sitting in different room of the same home. Technology has taken us apart from each other. In earlier times we had someone besides us to express our feeling. Expressing feeling is a very essential part of human civilization, it’s the driving force behind the invention of languages, from hieroglyphs to modern 3L173 languages and those pesky sms codes which we also use in twitter also. Why? Just to express ourselves and this gets worsen when we find no physical person in our reach to express ourselves then we turn rough and we attack everyone with our expression bombs.

Humans are meant to be a social animal. They are polygamous. They hate commitments but they also need each other. Expressing themselves is the basic needs of human. So does takes place the digital avatar of communal discussions. The advent of social network sites are very old. At that time they were not be touted as the place to talk shits. Rather it was the place to share valuable informations. Government has this ability and power to do that. Then there came a revolution and some resourceful people started to talk over the net. Use groups formed.  Then as the number of privileged persons grew, knowledge level declined in these online talk and now they are turned into utter shits. Well again this is the cycle of human evolution and we are now in the part of destruction of it. Once we didn’t had the knowledge to speak, now we speak more than we can think of in our mind and thus we are losing grip in the language. The cycle completes in this way and this way only. Today we use sarcastic pictures and photo comments to exhaust out inner self. Don’t these reminds of you about the hieroglyphs? It was from the time when we didn’t have the power of language to express ourselves. We used pictures and now I am in fear that we are slowly going toward the silent language era when we used the signs. It will not be because of that we will lose the power to communicate but it will be because we will not find anyone qualified enough of understand us. Then it will be pointless of expressing and talking to each other because we will not understand each other.

Too much of uniqueness and individuality will bring the chaos to the natural order of communication because our tolerance power is declining and most of us also lack the courage and peripheral to draw and end line to define the inner supremacy of ours, we will start to ignore each other. Like now a days we slowly start to do in SNS. People fills it with so much bullshit now a days that people are using their biological  power of selective learning and starting to ignore the rest of the world and the radius is shrinking day by day, believe me. After some day most of the people will have 4999 friends in their friend list and still they will be seeking friend for them because no one will be very suitable for them.

Which brings me to the conclusion that we should start sound sense otherwise it would be too late for us to survive on our own. Our individual ego should not surpass our consciousness. We should not forget who we are and start to behave like more humanly. The Facebook is already over saturated with prince princess kings and queens with to no kingdom of their own. The virtual world is beginning to become our new reality. Some people are cashing out while others are just running blindfoldedly with scissors in their hands.

Are you one of them? Think again...

So, this is the end day of the colour festival of India called Holi. Even some days ago people were spending countless times with each other player holi, moving from one block to another of their city and colouring people. Well I am not talking about the holi of illiterate peoples of UP or BIHAR. They were just animals. Without raping several girls while drinking BHANG they don’t count that holi has any mean for them. In this point I think that Shivasena of Maharashtra is totally correct about these Biharis and Muslims, they are actually the cause of every mental degradation of the civic society. First they corrupted their own state, then they spread to other states like cancer cells. Just peek into any engineering college and you will find the amount of pollution they spread both physically and mentally. And the most dangerous are the half breeds, I am talking about people of other origin living in these poisonous colours. They take this poisons in their mind from childhood and then they start to think, thanks to their narrow mind, that this is the way of living. Yes, many people would argue that I am just being racist. No dear, I have been to BIHAR, living there, in my childhood, I saw that the originals, they are not savages. They are good. But people living at the endpoints are not. They didn’t take education to widen their minds and they didn’t let anyone also. The illiteracy rate is all time high there. Well at least they are proud of this even.

The so called backward casts are begging (demanding) for reservations because they don’t have any qualities in themselves to get job. Yes the ultimate thing they understand is amount of salary, above & under, the table so that they can get more dowry from girl’s father. Isn’t this look like the reverse of evolution? These people maybe have the same blood like the rest, they may look like homo sapience, but the mentality of them is so poor. And this is a genetic trait. It ant be changed suddenly. That’s why I think myself that the VARNASHRAMA created in Ancient India was justified. Suitable people at suitable jobs. Savages belong to their own works. Warrior belongs to battlefield. I respect Punjabis, they are clan of warriors and they fill up the most of the Army. But put any UP BIHARI in any place and you will suddenly see the declining growth of productivity. Bengalis are not so good warriors but they are good thinkers if they are permitted with mental freedom which is now a days very rare especially in Bengal. You do something here and you will be labelled with green or red banner. Genetic traits and qualities are very truth that even science is agreed on. Purity of blood as Hitler said was not fully myth. The countries who tried to divide this genetic barrier got ruined. Look at America, African-Americans are degrading the civilizations there. Different people from different mind-sets can’t live together in peace and harmony. It’s like mixing of oil and water which can’t take place in earth.

The backward class, no matter how much money they will earn, always remains to be backward class because it gives them numerous helps from government sides. Because they are the part of the ever growing vote banks of India where every political party has their eyes. A general cast family struggles to raise their only child just because of money problem, no matter how middle class they are and at the opposite point of spectrum, a Dalit is raising more than 5 kids just because government pays subsidy for their birth to death. If government paid them with its own money I wouldn’t be shouting that much but those are our money, our taxes. Government is taking our money and giving it to them just to make sure that they rule us quietly and not mention raping our society with their cancerous attitude.

Our ancient forefathers were no fools, they observed that if the work of a particular class is taken over by another class then it ruins the whole system as they don’t have the inherent knowledge of maintaining things. A Brahmin should not become Kshatriya just because he can. Only a Kshatriya knows how to fight and protect. A Brahmin’s work is to deliver the knowledge. For what he is meant by brahma, the creator. A shudra remains shudra all the time. No matter is he is given a kingdom to rule. He simply lacks the knowledge to maintain the order. And that is happening in India. We shout about being secular, actually India killed itself long ago. That’s why our forefathers built the VARNASHRAMA but being an Indian, we started to abuse this system and we started to hate each other because of the jobs we do and we started to kill and thus we made our system cripple and worthless and there left no choice but to abolish the main system but as there can’t be any vacuum in the systems so we made a secular version of it and we mixed, rather we should say, messed everything. And thus the current system came to existence. And the main credit goes to British, who ruled us and for establishing their own system, broke ours and to Indians who abused their system so much that there left no option but to change it.

Just because onions, garlic and spices increases libido, that’s why they were banned to the widows and we started to abuse our widow by it. Just because a widow is a liability to the family, we started to burn them. Just because you can’t marry another caste girl whom you liked, we started to enjoy them, rape them and dump them in places thus creating red light places. And thus all those things written in the religious books, we started to misinterpret them and using them in a way to cause pain to other and as we love to give pain to each other we did it awesomely. And thus we ourselves crippled our Hindu code of system from inside like termites. And yes I have no shame to say that Brahmins become the cruellest of all these classes of BARNA. They seemed to enjoy this. But then again it has no connection of with after death rituals like cremation ceremony. It’s a ceremony where people eat together upon the death of someone. Well this might seems cruel but it is to bring the positivity in the negative environment and Brahmins started torturing people with their never ending demands in the name of rituals. But the qualities which makes anyone a Brahmin clearly states that he should be pleased in little. It is one of the sacred vows he takes during his threading ceremony. But clearly they started to forget that and with the many divine curses in their arsenal they started to do the business of fear.

Yes, just because they had the knowledge to connect with the sacred books they started to misinterpret by twisting those verses into their own profit and thus they are solely responsible for the destruction of the system. I have no shame in admitting this though I belong to the oldest and sacred of Brahmin origin. Yes, I count my forefathers as criminals. And I am paying the price right now. Thus a cycle gets completed. Another cycle started and it is the second level of destruction which brought other religions in our country. Fair enough, I respect every religion but they took the chance of this religious void of Hinduism and converted many people to their own. This cycle increased in the time of British. Who were giving funding to spread Christianity by providing helps in the form of job, education and food to poor and so called religion less or religiously disgusted Indians. And by the increment of the business Islamic activity prospered too. Fair enough again. People start to trade their religions in the favour of personal gain. This cycle ended when British left the India demolishing its every part. Another cycle started when India was divided into nations and we started to rebuild our system again just simply by copying the British’s system and looking upon the vote banks newly created. British never cared for vote banks, they never needed it so they never needed to maintain it. But the newly created India needed it because there were several political parties that time. And thus this new cycle of system begun where we are currently living in. now the wave is reversed. The lower casts are ruling the upper class just because now they can. Ok fair enough. But do they have the power to rule? Most importantly, do they have the power to handle? No, and time is proving again and again.

And this concludes the excessive activity of lower casts now a days. It is all just because Brahmin’s destroyed the system for their greed, British established their system upon the grave of ours for their greed, and Politicians encouraging this bad system and using it for their greed. The world is running by greed and thus again the American philosophy of life is true. So the ultimate human destruction is because of their immense greed. This is the cancerous part of human nature which has no limit of growth. Greed at first may shows as growth, regardless of the form, we think its progress but like cancer cells they start to show malignant symptoms soon. And thus civilizations collapses. Greed creates consumers and created dependencies and in this global village just for the never ending want, when an average American spends dollars to eat a huge burger and wastes the most of it, an African is dying of hunger. Some people are consuming the all of the wealth which in otherwise could save millions. As a human we knew only to take from surroundings and never to give back. Nature is too much kind but not the humans so they go to war with each other.

A man’s warrior is another man’s terrorist. And by this formula, in the name of global peace, which is pretty amusing by the way, we do war and now the nukes at our disposal the god is watching with popcorn in his hands for the time we will wipe us out from this small island which we call home, the earth and over our dead bodies the god will start something new. He has done it for several times and he will do this again. There were time when god came to earth to save us. Then he saw that the time passes we have gone beyond repair. It is justifiable that why would he be wasting time of us. It will be better to create something fresh. Like an engineer gets bored out of a failed project and he starts over. God is doing similar than us because he is like us. Well if we have been made in the image of him then it is also true in other way. That’s why I find similarity between me and god. And that’s why I find it so relevant the words of Swamiji that we are not only part of the god, we are the living god. There is god in every one of us, it’s just sleeping. We need to wake him up. But who’s care? Today’s generation knows Sunny Leone more than Swamiji.

The god smiles at us looking at our destruction as we build and destroy and then again build and curse him. We human are our own enemies. God has nothing to do with us. We may have been made in his image but he is just too bored of us because we are doing the same things again and again in global scale. Maybe he is busy in making something better than us, perhaps it’s more like updated and upgraded version of Life somewhere else, and we may call it Life v2.0. This justifies alien abductions. Isn’t it? God is taking the good of us, making it, enhancing it other good he has found in the universe and creating something better than us. So the cycle of life continues even after we humans consume this whole earth to a black hole and still demand for more.

What we do with robots we build when it goes haywire? We try to repair them, then we forget them and start to build something better. Isn’t god is doing the same? What are we except some fleshly hardware, synaptic neural system of CPU and a software called sense? Yes we were the god’s greatest creation gone haywire. There is a hard coded bug in us which is beyond the reparability of god himself thus he has left us, given on us. The name of this hardcoded bug is the greed. So here we are connecting the dots of human’s revolution, evolution and destructions from the aspect of Indian point of view and history. I don’t hope that most of my readers will find palatable. People might think at first that I am politically biased, then they might think I am a racist, then they will think that I am just an over frustrated general caste and in the end they will find no sense at all. They will take it as a bullshit where ancient world, India, modern civilization, war, burger, racism, genetic purity, god, alien, computer language is mixed with another healthy amount of bullshit and some nonsense sprinkled served with rubbish English language. I am not a linguist by the way, I am just an average Joe who knows a little bit of everything and thus be able to connect the dots of this huge chaos theory. BUT I am very much sure that if this was shown in History Channel or Discovery or even in Local Channel by some white haired person speaking English with a Russian name, then it will start to sound sense miraculously.

Isn’t my today’s presentation is something different than my regular, in-life sadistic verses? Come on I know it is and I will wait for you guys in my Inbox. Bye for now. Hope to see you all in the other side someday sooner. Till then,

Sayonara.

I knew all the way long in my heart that this blog was coming. I was crying deep down within to reach to the unknown sphere of my deepest trench. This blog was the only way I could talk to myself. Though its part weird but still my only power and maybe the only curse is the information technology. Maybe it’s embossed within my DNA or maybe it has become the reflexive action. The last time I checked into the blog I saw many things, consciously or unconsciously. I had an encounter with Swamiji in my dreams, though he taught me something awesome about this life body and soul. He was a great teacher, he taught will examples, he made me cry in my dream and after the dream I was a changed man a bit. The subject or content of the dreams are very private to me but the teachings will reflect in my life. I would try to ignite more deprived soul with the fire within me. I will bear the torch for the people in the darkness, the ignorant souls and I will be a winner.

There is trouble going on inside my beloved college. Well my college doesn’t have any world class infrastructure, it doesn’t guarantee job, it takes money and its corrupt management gulps it all down but still I love my college. Am I a part of management? Certainly not. I hate them. Do I have loads of friends in college? Absolutely not. I am all alone there. Do I have any beautiful memories there? No way. It’s a living nightmare to me. Do I have an incredible class with full of supportive friends and people ready to do anything on my command? No. am I an ideal Class representative? Well go ask them, you will get the answer NO. Then? Is it the canteen? Do they serve incredible food? Fuhh ! Are you joking? They serve shit and that’s too in its coldest form. Is the library great full of knowledge and informations? Please! I can’t even find a proper book there and the newspaper? Nopes, haven’t seen its pages in my entire life. Then why I love my college? Its walls? Am I a pervert who seeks for any lady teacher? Absolutely not. Why I clean the blackboard every day with utmost care? Why I call the janitor to clean up class well? Why I take care of the podium? Why I keep an inventory of chalks so that no teacher would feel any problem or no students gets out of the class without any needed information? Why I always gather data and information and keep a group online so that everyone gets the information all the time anywhere? Why I am maintaining a student’s database so that they can get job calls effortlessly? Am I seriously a mad person? A freak out of his mind?

The answer is perhaps a bit more complicated. Actually I have nothing in my life. A lonely man. That’s why I devoted myself to my college and especially to my class. I spend hours looking in the internet for some good informations because I don’t have anyone to chat to in Facebook. I watch movies because I don’t have anyone to talk to. I play computer games because my life is so mundane and thrill less. I read books, but unlike my childhood, I like the patience now. I need to breathe. I know that but god took my breath away. Unless he is giving me back how can I be well? Yes I believe in the supreme energy but I also believe that in the disguise of his so called tests he enjoys giving pain. He judges people and allocates the resource to him. Like some operating system but operating systems do cause deadlocks and starving isn’t it? For the success and fluid working of many processes, some process have to starve, have to suffer the wound-wait or the wait-die. But that’s all just practical programming isn’t it? You can’t help it as a programmer and maybe neither the god also. Because at the end he is the divine programmer. And maybe I am just the unlucky soul who is just getting starved. And I know I will wait and die. Because I don’t hold the fool’s hope.

Recently I have been talking to some people though they have absolutely no qualities to be my partner but I have become too flexible for anything or any situation. I am ever ready now. Offer me anything. Bring it on. Give me more pain. Because I will stand up again. My tolerance power has grown up and I like to take up challenges, especially which involves pain. Maybe I have become fan to pain. I have lost my only 2 of best friends remaining to some other people. People in relationships suddenly becomes too selfish and before they knew it, they loses everything they had with them so far and the last thing they loses is their willpower. Because in the name of devotion, they have sold their souls to someone they love. While the other person enjoys the loyalty of a dog, they become looser. Anyways relationships are not bad. It’s good. Everybody should have one. And everybody does have one. Either they know about it or haven’t felt about it. And when they will feel the shock, it’s the warmest thing they will ever be feeling in their heart. I know that, been through many times and back. We all have some philosopher crawling inside our skin, thriving to get out. Congrats! You have just met with mine.

Haven’t you? ;)