Thursday – 26/06/2014
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9:15AM
Good morning my friends. I am
again at the college. Again for the downloading. Again will follow the same
routine to find new movie and game torrents at some specific sites. Again I
will find the Hindi & English songs at some specific sites. Will view
Facebook. Wish birthdays. I will watch people getting into relationship and
getting engaged, married and will wish them on that. Will check my mail and
will delete all the spams from the inbox after marking them as spam. Will check
my other email accounts and clear out the junks. I will then again start to
struggle to download at a proper speed. Will run here and there, this floor and
that floor to get Wi-Fi signal. Will curse on people who are responsible for my
this misery and then when my struggle will finally end at 5pm, I will go
straight to my permanent fast food stall and will have exactly one plate of veg
chow with lots of chili sauce and veggies and lods of mutton gravy.
4:06PM
Again I am starting to write my
incomplete posting. One more hour left for me here. Today I got good speed maybe
it’s because I found a good place to download and also I got clarification of
lots of things. I realizes that a male is only worth of his position in any
company and his bank balance. The psychology of a girl’s parent are like this. If
the person willing to marry their daughter is working in private company then
he have to be in the position of VP, CEO, CFO, MD or something equivalent of that.
Self-business will be accepted if you ae one of Tata Birla Ambani Goyenka etc.
if you are government employee then for rail and bank you have to be in a post greater
than equal to Regional Manager. Of you have to be MLA, MP, IPS, IAS etc. and if
their daughter is beautiful and somewhat sexy then anything below the point of
NRI is just unacceptable. And if by chance the person is a student then anything
below the rank of IIM IIT NIT is just waste of the daughter’s parent’s time.
Updated my tab with lots of
music. Some of them are really good. Hearing them on loop is feeling nice. So the
melody haven’t died from the world. There might be some special class or
seminar will take place because our principal came to visit classes with two
other people whom I don’t know. I am such a fool that I forgot to even wish him
because I because so unprepared for his arrival. Actually it was totally
unexpected. I was just froze. Actually I was watching a movie. With my
headphones on. I don’t know what he thought about me that moment but as a known
face of the department he might expected a wish from me and I disappointed him.
In my life I disappointed many
people. May be I disappointed my last so called GF by saying that getting into
IIM IIT is not possible for me now and becoming IAS or IPS is also not
possible. Finally she said to get the fucking out of her life. And I will do
that for sure. I mean I won’t be wasting my time for her because she is a dead
end and I realised that today. I am only worth of my pocket and my pocket is
empty now. I disappointed my parents many times. Maybe I have disappointed my
best friends also. Otherwise why they would turning their face on me? But there
is nothing I can do now. I am just like that. A big fat looser maybe.
She just prove my mother right
once again. My mom told me that her father won’t be giving up his daughter to
me because I am poor and belong to a poor family. Maybe experience comes with
the price of white hairs. But anyways I myself like to have the experience in
the first hand term. Strangers are good at talking that I realised now a days. Because
I don’t have friends and it’s better to talk to friends than to people who just
pretend friendly.
I hate human nature to pretend… it’s
a big turn off.
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